A Simple Reminder & A Life Book

The unsung hero

2012-01-27T15:32:00.001Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I felt really sorry for those people who are so in need of work and who are willing to be very committed with their work and yet they can't work under certain circumstances. I once witnessed this situation : There was this nice family who really needed a maid and had been longing for one. After a year or two of trying to find one, they got a nice maid. The family liked the maid, the maid liked working for the family. And all of a sudden, the maid needed to stop working because she was a carrier of hepatitis B. It breaks my heart to witness such a tragedy. She was such a good worker...she needed money... she's old...she came all the way from a neighboring country leaving everything behind simply to work and to be paid with a sum of money. Kalau kita fikir-fikirkan pasal kehidupan seorang maid, if you are not strong enough, you could never become one. We'll end up crying all the time I guess. Tinggalkan family, tinggalkan negara. Kena travel jauh-jauh, pastu tak tahu lagi nasib di tempat orang macam mana. Kalau dapat majikan yang baik, oklah. Kalau dapat majikan yang jahat. Nauzubillah. Pastu seharian buat kerja.

There is so much that I could learn from this type of people. Learning how to be tough, how to be committed with work. Makes me appreciate my life more than ever. Makes me stronger to face the trials and tribulations of life. These people are the truly unsung heroes (at least for their own family) and worth to be pondered upon.

I choose Arabic!

2011-12-18T02:30:00.000Z

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Pengasihani :)

I've attended the so-called intensive Arabic classes for 4 times. With Mama and Hubby.

Mama is already an expert in all this nahu-nahu things. She has been studying arabic

ON HER OWN for the past 10-15 years.

Hubby pun oklah, he took arabic language subject for PMR.

Sayalah paling, erm....I don't want to say sayalah paling lemah sebab lemah is a negative word. Sayalah paling memerlukan kelas ini. No basic at all.Very limited knowledge.

Tapi saya NAK belajar. InsyaAllah.

Saya NAK faham Quran :) Saya NAK jadi orang yang masa solat tarawih boleh imagine word by word apa yang imam bacakan. InsyaAllah.

Subhanallah that would be wonderful!

The first three classes was quite easy to digest.

All the Isim, Fi'il, Jumlah, Harf Jar.

Masuk Muzakkar, Mu'annas. Ok lagi.

Masuk mufrad, musanna, jamaq. Susah sikit.

Masuk Maf'ulum bih dan Idofah(Mudofun Ilaih) during the fourth class.

SUSAH BANYAK! hehe.

It is not about understanding the concepts.

I can grasp the concept. But the terms and the baris!

I think the Ustaz mentioned that I'rab is the term used to explain about baris-baris ni.

Baris atas, baris depan baris bawah.

And each baris has a few different names.

Katakanlah baris atas,

kejap-kejap ustaz guna fathah, kejap guna mansub, kejap guna an-nasab.

In Arabic, you have to change the baris to show different meanings

or the number of things or the gender.

This I'rab thingy is a bit challenging. But I won't give up insyaAllah.

It is one of my childhood dreams to master another language apart from Malay and English.

I would love to learn either french or japanese language. I don't know why. Random choices.

But in order to be a better servant, in order to understand kalamullah and be close to Him.

I choose Arabic.Let us choose to learn Arabic,Everyone!

French and Japanese and other languages (kalau hidup lama lagi and semangat lagi),

boleh belajar lepas-lepas tu.

Till then!

Pertandingan video APG 2011. OSEM.

2011-12-16T11:11:00.000Z

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Pengasihani :)

Tak lama lagi akan masuk tahun 2012. Berperasaan segar untuk mengajar. Untuk memulakan tahun pertama sebagai arkitek bangsa, sebagai jurutera bangsa, sebagai doktor bangsa. Sekiranya ada rezeki dan peluang daripada Allah, mungkin akan melanjutkan pelajaran di peringkat Masters. Berperasaan penuh harapan dan angan-angan untuk berkeluarga, untuk terus berjaya.

Bagaimana pula dengan perancangan dakwah saya? Ini sudah masuk tahun keempat berada di dalam Dakwah dan Tarbiyyah(D&T) dan tahun kelima sejak berkenalan dengan D&T. Adakah saya berperasaan segar untuk memulakan tahun seterusnya sebagai arkitek ummah, jurutera ummah dan doktor ummah? Pertandingan Video Osem APG 2011 anjuran blog Angel Pakai Gucci mengetuk hati saya untuk terus berjuang. Adik-adik, kakak-kakak, abang-abang, pendek kata, ikhwah dan akhawat begitu bersemangat, penuh dengan himmah yang tinggi membuat video tentang dakwah dan tarbiyyah. Subhanallah. Tahniah APG! Semoga usaha anda dan juga semua peserta dianugerahkan keredhaan Allah. Semoga diberikan kekuatan untuk terus menjaga keikhlasan hati. InsyaAllah. Ini link kepada blog tersebut : AngelPakaiGucci

Saya juga perlu terus bersemangat.

Teringat kata-kata naqibah saya iaitu, 'Begitu banyak tenaga, masa, wang dan perancangan dilaburkan untuk menghasilkan seorang akh mahupun ukhti'. Saya pernah berpengalaman membawa bulatan gembira adik-adik di U.K dan saya juga pernah berpengalaman didekati oleh kakak-kakak. Dan saya tahu usaha itu bukan mudah.

Allah telah menganugerahkan saya seorang suami yang turut berada di jalan D&T. Bahkan beliau aktif dan penuh dengan keazaman untuk terus berada pada jalan ini. Jadi, saya juga perlu mencontohi dirinya. Suami saya pernah berkata, 'Masa hidup nilah nak pergi program,nak buat usrah, dah masuk kubur nanti tak boleh dah'.

It is really up to us. Kalau kita nak, kita akan meletakkan dakwah dan tarbiyyah lebih daripada segalanya. Kalau kita taknak, kita akan berterusan mencipta alasan. Nauzubillah. Semoga saya bersedia dan terus bersedia untuk kekal berada pada jalan ini. Dengan sepenuh hati. Bukan lagi bersyarat. Bukan lagi atas rasa terpaksa. Lawan perasaan yang sentiasa inginkan kesenangan dan kerehatan. Gerabak dakwah akan sentiasa bergerak. Adakah kita mahu ketinggalan? Adakah kita mahu ketinggalan di saat Islam kembali dijulang? Adakah kita ingin menjadi pemerhati dari jauh ataupun kita ingin menjadi mereka yang bekerja untuk menegakkan Islam?

Saya ingin menjadi mereka yang bekerja.

Izinkanlah wahai Allah. Kuatkanlah wahai Allah. Ameen.

Doakan =D

Will certainly vote for this one :) So comel!

I miss all my bulatan gembira :) especially the ones in Cardiff...Semua orang pun vote ok for whichever video that they like!

Till then!

If you haven't been to Bukit Kayu Hitam and Padang Besaq...

2011-12-15T15:08:00.001Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Right after coming back from Langkawi, we went for a short trip to Bukit Kayu Hitam and Padang Besar.

Alang-alang we were there, we decided to visit the famous places.

I was a bit disappointed upon reaching Bukit Kayu Hitam Duty Free Zone. Ada satu shopping complex yang sederhana besarnya. Barang-barang dia biasa jelah. Barang Thailand. Tempat dia tak besar. Dan tak menarik pun (in my eyes). We travelled so far, for nearly one hour from Kuala Perlis, and yet the place was not as what we expected. We expected something like Pengkalan Kubur or Rantau Panjang in Kelantan. Well, siapa suruh ada great expectation. Of course the shopping complex was not to be blamed. I'm just sharing this info with those who have not been there and who used to have similar expectation with me. If you're hoping for something like Rantau Panjang, then Bukit Kayu Hitam is certainly not the place. AND YOU DON'T NEED A PASSPORT TO GO THERE. You drive through the sempadan, and you will see a shopping complex on your left. And apart from the shopping complex, there was one Bazaar nearby with about 10-15 kedai kecil. We did not buy anything there.

Entering the Thailand border...No passport needed if you are just going to Bukit Kayu Hitam Duty Free Zone.

Bukit Kayu Hitam Duty Free Zone

Heavy traffic... heading towards Malaysia...

Lepas pergi Bukit Kayu Hitam, we decided to go to Padang Besar without the slightest picture of the place in our minds. But we were still hoping that it would be better and bigger than the Bukit Kayu Hitam Duty Free Zone. This Padang Besar was quite far from civilisation. Kena meredah ladang tebu sebelum sampai(sangat cantik!) Walaupun pemandangan cantik, saya masih rasa bosan sebab lama sangat berada dalam kereta.Out of boredom, I kept asking Hubby ' Bila nak sampai ni...?'. Just to annoy him. Hehe. And when I kept myself quiet, hubby would start asking me 'Bila nak sampai ni...?' ;p

Dan kami dah sampai ke kawasan terpanas dalam Malaysia! It was, Chuping, located on the way to Padang Besar. Alhamdulillah when we reached the site, it matched our expectation. Banyak jugaklah kedai. Tapi sampai-sampai dah dalam pukul 5 petang. So, we had about 1 hour to wander around. I think everything was made in Thailand. Ada banyak baju, tikar, barang-barang anyam, kacang-kacang, beg, mainan, barang kahwin, food stalls, toto etc etc etc. You might need half a day to ronda-ronda sampai puas. Things there were relatively cheap. We bought a picnic mat for RM8, whereas the normal market price would be RM12. Departed from Padang Besar, headed towards Jitra at about 6 p.m. Loved the green scenery. Breathtaking!We both enjoyed the journey through the sugarcane field :)

Disappointed with Bt.Kayu Hitam, decided to go to Padang Besar.


Journey to Padang Besar

Chuping, Perlis - warmest area in Malaysia


Sugarcane field? Or Corn field? Love the green scenery...This picture doesn't do it justice.

Till then! :) Jauh pemandangan, Luas pengalaman, bertambah pengetahuan!

May Allah bless our journeys. Ameen.

p/s: and please feel free to have your own views. you might like bukit kayu hitam. there is nothing wrong with it. just the matter of point of views :)

A husband is a gift from God :)

2011-12-13T11:25:00.003Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

A husband is a gift from God :)

“Diperlihatkan neraka kepadaku. Ternyata majoriti penghuninya adalah para wanita yang kufur .” Ada yang bertanya kepada beliau: “Apakah para wanita itu kufur kepada Allah?” Beliau menjawab: “(Tidak, melainkan) mereka kufur kepada suami dan mengkufuri kebaikan (suami). Seandainya engkau berbuat baik kepada salah seorang dari mereka satu masa, kemudian suatu saat ia melihat darimu ada sesuatu (yang tidak berkenan di hatinya) niscaya ia akan berkata: Aku sama sekali belum pernah melihat kebaikan darimu.”

(HR. Al-Bukhari no. 29 dan Muslim no. 907)

Some women have this tendency to spot their husbands' weaknesses. They love to nag and complain. It is sort of a syndrome spreading among them. Complain kepada suami sendiri tu satu hal lah. Ada juga orang yang akan cerita segala masalah rumahtangga kepada semua orang. That's not good. Let us muhasabah diri. Are we one of them?

If you feel bad about something that your husband did, it is OK to discuss in a good way on whatever that you both disagree on (a difficult thing to do during crisis). But it is not OK to deny all the kindness that our husbands had been doing for us. It is not OK. Some women have this habit of forgetting their husbands' sacrifices. Especially when they are mad. Are we one of them? Astaghfirullah.

I once heard on the radio, a caller was telling Prof Muhaya that her husband was having an affair with a third person. And Prof Muhaya asked the caller to ask herself, "Kenapa sampai suami perlu cari ketenangan di luar.Apa yang kurang pada layanan puan pada suami puan?"

Being a married person, we should always improve ourselves in dealing with the husbands.
Be kind, be gentle, be romantic, be loving, be lovable, be tolerant. BE LIVELY :)

A husband is a gift from Allah and we must take care of the gift. Be pleasant to him because Allah wants us to please our life partner.

Hubby and papa :) The two most important men in my life...

Wallahua'lam

Mount Sinai...

2011-12-11T11:43:00.003Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful...

Sinai is the name of a place/district in Egypt.

Alhamdulillah, Allah gave me the chance to reach the top of Mount Sinai in 2008. After about 3 hours of climbing during the night, we managed to reach the top. PUNCAK JABAL SINAI.
Subhanallah, indescribable feelings. It was and still is a known fact that I am not physically fit. As far as I am concern, Saya bukan berpenyakit ke apa, tapi saya cepat penat. Naik tangga sikit pun dah mengah. Just like Po in Kung Fu Panda 2, stairs is my enemy. So, it was an amazing achievement for me; climbing a mountain! Selepas sejam lebih panjat, saya dah niat siap-siap kalau-kalau jatuh ke bawah dan mati saya redha. I kept saying to myself, if Nabi Musa can do this, I must do this! Sebab dah tak larat sangat dan angin kuat sangat. Rasa macam boleh je diterbangkan angin. Believe me, the wind was strong! It was icy cold up there. Macam musim sejuk di U.K. And yes, we went there during winter, and Egypt also experienced cold weather in December. Kena pakai winter coat and mitten! Kalau ada orang nak bukak bisnes jual selimut kat atas sana pun confirm laku. I saw some tourists wrapping themselves in blankets.

Double jackets. Mittens. And still shivering!

We started climbing at about 1 a.m. It was actually quite meriah. Ramai je orang panjat, in groups. Lights from torchlights here and there. Each group must have a tour guide; a local person. In fact ada orang tua jugak - subhanallah fit nya! Must be Europeans. For those who did not want to climb with their two legs, they can choose to ride camels. It was not all the time climbing really. Route dia dah disediakan, just jalan je lah. Cuma ada tempat-tempat, especially when you are about to reach the top, kena panjat-panjat. Reached the top before subuh and we prayed subuh there, waited for sunrise. Takde toilet, air pun sikit je nak berwudhuk. Solat dekat satu ruang. Lelaki perempuan campur. Despite everything, it was a wonderful feeling. Being able to reach the place where Prophet Musa bermunajat to Allah. There were people of different religions up there. Christians, Muslims and others. Orang Kristian pun percaya jugak pasal Nabi Musa.

And as I was at the top, I experienced another challenge, - habuk entered one of my eyes due to the strong wind. Being afflicted with that kind of pain - it was quite difficult for me to make my way down the mountain. I slipped and fall twice. Luckily the route for going down was easier than the route that we used to climb the mountain.

Surrounding mountains - view from top of Mount Sinai

At the top of Mount Sinai


The sun finally rises!

On our way down

So, if you're thinking of climbing Mount Sinai. Just go for it :) A once in a lifetime experience. Don't be afraid. Walaupun saya cerita pasal angin kuat and rasa nak diterbangkan etc, tapi kalau Allah takdirkan tak mati, takkan mati punya... Challenge yourself and visit the place where Nabi Musa bermunajat :) Ponder upon perjuangan Nabi Musa. Sanggup panjat gunung demi menyahut seruan Allah.

People of the boat

2011-12-06T16:37:00.001Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I think Allah mentioned about people of the boat/ship a few times in the Glorious Quran.

It was described as a group of people who were sailing on a boat and then they were faced with great calamities; strong winds, huge waves. There and then they prayed to Allah with their sincerest hearts so that Allah removes the adversity from them. They promised to become the grateful ones if Allah answers their prayers. HOWEVER, once they were safe, they turned their backs upon the promise made.

I still remember when I was about to know the result of my posting placement; which district in Pahang. I felt very anxious if I were to be sent far far away. The fact that I am living separately from my hubby is challenging enough. Being away from my family would add up the challenge. I was very emotionally unstable. Lebih kurang lah macam people of the boat. Very desperate. I prayed and prayed and prayed to Allah for Kuantan, since Kuantan is the nearest town to Terengganu and my sister resides in Kuantan. I WAS CLINGING TO ALLAH.

And I promised myself to be a better person, to turn over a new leaf if I were to be posted in Kuantan. And I promised Allah not to become like the people of the boat. The people of the boat, most of them only remembered Allah during difficult times and they forgotten Him, forgotten about their promises once they were free from the hardships. I don't want to be that. Ameen. I know I am far from solehah, but insyaAllah I'll keep trying.

Below is the verse regarding people of the boat...

It is He who enables you to travel on land and sea until, when you are in ships and they sail with them by a good wind and they rejoice therein, there comes a storm wind and the waves come upon them from everywhere and they assume that they are surrounded, supplicating Allah , sincere to Him in religion, "If You should save us from this, we will surely be among the thankful." But when He saves them, at once they commit injustice upon the earth without right. O mankind, your injustice is only against yourselves, [being merely] the enjoyment of worldly life. Then to Us is your return, and We will inform you of what you used to do.

[Surah Yunus : 22-23]

Hidup di dunia, kita akan sentiasa diuji. I pray to Allah so that I will always cling to him, no matter what. Biiznillah.Wallahua'lam.

Plan

2011-11-29T10:59:00.003Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

There are so many things that you can do if only you are willing to take the first step; PLAN.

I need to plan. I must plan.10 days of my holidays have just passed and I still haven't achieved anything worthwhile. 20 days left. So, what do I do with that 20 days.

1. Finish up my orientation folio. ASAP.
2. Complete my intensive Arabic course (successfully!). Belajar tulis jawi so that it is easier to construct arabic sentences.
3. Finish reading 5 books. What's in my list now : Travelog dakwah by Prof. Kamil , A doctor in the house by Tun Mahathir, Life Lifters by Zig Ziglar, Teaching your kids about money, Minda Muslim Super by Dr Danial.
4. Hafazan Juz Amma : at least 2 surah! al bayyinah in particular...never attempted to hafal this surah. and perhaps I want to refresh my hafazan on either surah Al-buruj or surah Al-Lail...
5. Contact possible supervisor at UMT and ENROL into a Masters course.
6. Mutabaah amal! Keep it going. Ma'thurat, daily Quran recital, usrah, tahajjud.
7. Memorise doa istikarah, doa solat dhuha, doa ketika bersedih. The arabic version!
8. Plan my daily routine and live by it!
9. Clear up unwanted things. Give away unused clothes. Make sure my room is in a tip-top condition.
10. Reduce the extra weight(bunuh selera makan) and exercise! Drink plenty of water, eat multivitamin, jog.
11. Manage my money. Frugal lifestyle!
12. Buat album kahwin. Been delaying for 1 year. Buat album travel. Now that I have the money.
13. Visit people. Relatives, friends. Send best wishes to the newly weds, birthday girls/boys. Keep in touch with people!
14. Write at least 10 blog posts on life experiences before I start to forget them.
15. Listen to talks about dakwah.
16. Pray on time and be khusyuk!
17. Try 2 new recipes. Learn how to make kuih gunting and mas jemput.
18. Keep business at PPO alive.
19. Muhasabah diri at night and plan 6 things that I am going to do tomorrow.

Last but not least.

20. Be nice to people. Control my mood swings/anger. Anger management plan.

InsyaAllah! Please make it easy dear Allah. Ameen.

our minds wander during solah...

2011-11-23T14:17:00.000Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

khusyuk dalam solat. Do you have it in you?

It is not an easy thing to remain focused in our prayers. Especially when we pray in unfamiliar places during long journeys etc. The fact that we take the time to stop and pray is one thing. Another thing which is of utmost important is the level of khusyukness that we are able to bring ourself to, during our prayers. Or else the prayer would be in vain. Meaningless. We pray and yet we don't pray. Got me? Solat tapi hakikatnya tak solat.

I always remind myself - what is the point of finding the time and place to pray and bersusah payah go to the toilet, take wudhu' -spending more or less 40minutes in the process of performing our prayers -during journeys or events or between lectures/classes- and yet when we are praying we are not khusyuk. We don't try to be khusyuk. We let our minds wander. We don't even feel that Allah is watching us, responding to us. Serves us right, since we are the ones who don't feel as if we are talking to Him, the King of the whole universe. Pointless right? One can argue that people who pray is better than those who don't care to pray at all. Well, to a certain extent, maybe true. But then we always claim that we want to be good servants, we all want to be placed in Jannah. It is not enough to just be better than those who don't pray. We must perform our best in our prayers. Kalau exam orang selalu kata kena perform, right. Samalah juga dalam solat. Mesti perform...

InsyaAllah :)

I still remember how challenging it was to pray during university years...There was only one prayer room for all the Muslim students in the university. A very small one located at the university basement...It was called the quiet room, and it must be shared between sisters and brothers. We, in Cardiff university weren't as lucky as muslim students in Nottingham, Warwick or Leeds university who had a very spacious prayer room. In addition to that(the small size), here, sisters and brothers must use the room alternately within a very short period of time. Let say Zuhur was between 1p.m to 3p.m. Sisters could use the room between 1-2p.m while brothers could use the room from 2p.m up to 3p.m. But people didn't usually follow the already set time. It was usually based on first come first serve. Lunch break was usually for about 1 hour. And in that one hour we would rush to pray and take our lunch.Ok, what I am trying to say is that, it wasn't easy to pray there. You must share, take turn, rush and sometimes sacrifice your lunch - in order to pray. And it would end up into something meaningless if we don't try our best to be khusyuk.Contohnya, you want to meet someone important because you have something to say to him or you need to ask a favour out of him. You rushed and you skipped your meal for fear of being late. And yet when you see him, you say nothing. Isn't it meaningless?

So woe to those who pray.

[But] who are heedless of their prayer -

Those who make show [of their deeds]

And withhold [simple] assistance.

[Al-Ma'un : 4-7]

Wallahua'lam. May Allah guide us always.

frugal lifestyle!

2011-11-19T13:13:00.005Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

FRUGAL LIFESTYLE

The term was first introduced to me by my sister. I overheard her repeating 'frugal lifestyle' again and again in her conversations... I wasn't sure of the exact definition for the term frugal. But I could guess that it had something to do with being thrifty.

Later on, I bought a book entitled 'Teaching your kids about money'. I haven't finished reading the book so I couldn't give an overall review. I will get my salary soon, in about 2 weeks time insyaAllah :) and I could feel the urge to learn more about financial planning. So the book is actually for me, the title should be 'Teaching yourself about money' ;)

The book is simple enough and straight forward enough. I once tried reading a financial book by Azizi Ali but I didn't find that the book was an easy read, even though the book was meant to be simple. I need something simpler.

Frugal means practicing economy ; living without waste; thrifty.

It is relatively easy to practice frugality when you don't have that extra money in your bank account. But once you've started earning, the desire to spend would come instantaneously.

RASA MACAM ADA JE BENDA NAK KENA BELI =0
rasa macam banyak lagi benda takde ;p
RASA MACAM BARANG-BARANG YANG ADA DAH BURUK :0
rasa macam dah lama tak beli benda baru =P

Right? those are the notions that will be playing in your head. Repeating itself over and over again.

I don't know how successful I will be at practising frugality once I've got my salary (soon enough)...
If you are a frequent visitor of this blog, you might notice that I really really like this book called The last lecture by Randy Pausch. I like it well enough to blog about it twice. I learn a lot about frugality from the book. For example Randy won't buy any new clothes until the one that he had was already worn out. He was contented with his wardrobe. He didn't feel the need to follow fashion and to keep adding new sets of clothes into his wardrobe. This is the kind of mentality that I am trying to instill into myself.

However, being frugal doesn't mean that you have to be stingy. Sedekah is a must. Buying things when the old ones are already worn out is OK. Rewarding yourself once in a while is also OK provided that you've accomplished something(worthwhile). Don't fall into the trick of rewarding yourself anytime anywhere. You yourself must do the checking. Why am I buying this? Why am I buying that?

My hubby sometimes helps me in doing the checking.
'Perlu ke tak? kalau perlu, beli...'
'Nak pakai ke tak, kalau akan pakai, beli...'
'Dah ada ke belum, kalau dah ada tak payah beli...'

I like pretty cute things such as cute notebooks. Whenever I wanted to buy something cute, he would say 'kita beli sesuatu bukan sebab dia cute or best, tapi sebab kita perlukan benda tu...'

Not easy right. The temptation is always there.

An interesting quote here - To get big things you must make do without the small things :)

What is the point of being frugal? So that all our money is directed towards a good cause.
For dakwah, for sadaqah, for education, for buying a house. For all the big things.

InsyaAllah :)

A weekend to remember.

2011-11-07T12:52:00.004Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Eid Mubarak everyone :)

I had a great Eid celebration with my parents in Terengganu.

Great but incomplete. Hubby was not at home. I surely miss my other half. All my other siblings were also not at home. I surely miss them.

Great and yet very serene. It was just the three of us at home. It has been quite long since I got to give undivided attention towards my parents and receive their whole attention. Indescribable feelings :)

Great and yet relaxed. We had a humble makan-makan ceremony at my uncle's place where everyone simply put on simple clothes and cooked simple dishes. We had a great time catching up with each other.

This Eid was certainly a weekend to remember - with my lovely loving parents.

I'm sure that all of us know that parents are very highly ranked in Islam. And it is not easy to always be grateful and nice towards them which explains the great reward that awaits those who are pleasant to their parents. InsyaAllah the struggle will surely be a worthwhile one.

Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah for always being nice to me. I hope that I will continue being grateful to you until my last breathe.

2011-11-03T11:44:00.000Z

O you who have believed,

persevere and endure and

remain stationed and

FEAR ALLAH

that you may be successful.

[3:200]

Wearing jeans is not a must :)

2011-10-21T04:45:00.001+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

People have this assumption that when you go to the U.K (or any temperate overseas countries), you have to wear jeans or at least bring jeans.

Saya pun samalah masa dulu-dulu nak pergi U.K. Tapi saya bawak jugak seluar lain. Through my own experience, wearing jeans is not a must. Nak pakai takpe, tapi kalau taknak pakai jeans, takde masalah pun. Masa mula-mula berkenalan dengan dakwah dan tarbiah, rasa hairan sangat tengok kakak-kakak pakai skirt panjang dengan blouse panjang and jubah dekat U.K.

Rasa WOW hebatnya! Sejuk mata memandang :) Hebat sebab mereka berpakaian macam tu di tempat sejuk. Walhal sebenarnya bila pakai seluar di dalam, jadik warm dan selesa :) tak kesahlah pakai jubah ke skirt panjang ke kat luar.. Hebat jugak sebab pakai macam tu di negara bukan Islam :)

My concern is, bila orang-orang yang di malaysianya tak pernah pun pakai seluar jeans, tapi sebab risaukan kesejukan di U.K. pastu 'terpakai' jeans dekat sana dan terbiasa pakai jeans. Jeans ni kita tahulah kan material dia memang melekat dekat badan. Unless beli yang memang loose. I followed my sister's advice, dia cakap beli yang saiz besar pastu kecilkan pinggang. So that seluar tu loose sikit & takdelah ketat melekat.

Jadi, sebenarnya takpe je tak bawak jeans pun. Bawak je seluar kain tebal sikit.

It is not good you know to wear tight pants be it jeans or slacks. Tak manis. Leggings lagilah. An absolute no no. Apa pandangan Allah pada kita...Kita ni siang malam berdoa pada Allah, nak ni nak tu. Nak syurga, nak mati dalam iman. Tapi benda-benda yang Allah suruh, kita tak fikir pun nak jaga. Saya pun bukanlah seorang muslimah yang ideal. But I would love to be one. Hopefully by writing this entry, Allah would make it easy for me to become a better muslimah in terms of my appearance. Ameen! Bukannya salah memakai jeans kalau loose/longgar, tapi kalau rasa ada better options, kita usahakan ok? ;)

Teaching what I like :)

2011-10-17T15:34:00.004+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

It had been decided earlier today that I'll be teaching biology next year. Alhamdulillah and yeay =D

Biology plus either science or english. Sebabnya ada satu je kelas bio di sekolah ini jadi kena top up dengan subjek-subjek lain.
In teacher's world, it is absolutely normal for teachers not to be given the chance to teach what they specialise in.

In simple words, tak semestinya kita akan ajar apa yang kita belajar. Ikut keperluan sekolah.

Hang belajaq bio ka, kimia ka, tup tup hang pegi sekolah esok-esok cikgu BM yang tak cukup, maka hang ajaq lah BM.

I would love to teach Biology :) tapi kalau tak dapat, I don't mind teaching English, Pendidikan Islam(but not the jawi part), Sivik, Science, History, Geography. Even though I'm not an expert in those subjects, I believe that I would still have the confidence to teach those subjects and make the lessons lively :)

But I don't think I have the heart to teach Add maths! maths! physics! chemistry! Kemahiran hidup! PJ!BM!

I was not born to become a mathematician. But when I told that to my sister, she said 'never ever say that kita tak pandai maths. It is all in the mind'. Jadinya saya berusaha lah belajar maths dan dapatlah A1 for both addmaths and modern maths. She's right, it is all in the mind(to a certain extent).

I used to be quite good in Add maths. Tapi tu sebab nak dapat A. I don't want to teach add maths!
teaching add maths would mean = long hours of revision(again) as a teacher. Pastu mesti berdebar setiap kali nak masuk kelas mengajar sebab tak ingat dah semua formula. Pastu mulalah kelas jadik bosan dan tak lively dan budak tidur. I think I had enough addmaths during my secondary years. I think I attempted questions in about 10 addmaths books and attended 4 tuition classes for addmaths alone both during school time and during school holidays. LOGARITHMA? nightmare :( I hate learning LOGS! Malas nak positive thinking. LOG memang susah. Period.

Physics pun sama. TAKNAK AJAR FIZIK. I hate learning physics.Not because it isn't interesting. Tapi sebab susah. Subjek sains yang paling susah bagi saya. Hubby pun sama, hubby pun tak pandai fizik hehe :D
We both got A2 in physics. We are match made in heaven in that sense.

Chemistry OK. Tapi kena pandai persamaan! Dan kena ingat ion-ion punya cas. Kalau boleh taknak. Kalau kena ajar, means long hours of revision jugak. Tapi kalau kena pilih between addmaths, physics and chemistry. I think I'll choose chemistry.

Kemahiran hidup OK. But I'm not good at sewing! Dan memasak bersama budak-budak tingkatan 1 dan 2 agak merbahaya. Pelajar lower form memerlukan supervision yang super tinggi dalam apa jua amali. DAN kalau kena ajar bertukang, I'm dead.

Allah is being too nice to me, again! He gives me the chance to teach something that I'm good at, something that I'm passionate about. Teaching biology enables me to easily deliver islamic message. Because biology is all about God's creation.


wow that's me holding a small rodent! surprisingly! When I was staying in Cardiff, there was a mice in our house and I used to run away and scream at the sight of the mice. But for the sake of accepting my lecturer's challenge. I pulled a brave face and hold a mice!

Susah payah belajar biologi, now I can finally teach it to others :)

Before tying the knot :)

2011-10-14T13:23:00.004+01:00

Q : Ukhti, kalau tak keberatan maybe boleh kongsi camne nak jaga batas sebelum kahwin & camne boleh ambil keputusan yang yakin tanpa kenal orang tersebut?

The above inquiry was a respond that I got from a reader in my previous posts - My wedding experience series.

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

A : Menjaga batas sebelum perkahwinan tak mudah tapi dalam kes saya Alhamdulillah ianya dimudahkan dengan bantuan naqib dan naqibah kami. Kami tidak berhubung atau berjumpa melainkan dengan kehadiran naqib atau naqibah atau kedua ibu bapa. Sounds difficult? Huhu. Frankly speaking, takdelah sesusah mana. Possible je. Hati hendak semua jadi. Bahkan rasa selamat kerana cuba menjaga batas-batas yang ditetapkan Allah. Tak pernah bercakap telefon pun. Kebanyakan interaksi melalui email dan mesti di cc kan kepada naqibah atau naqib.Selain itu, melalui ibu bapa.
[boleh bertanya pengalaman akhawat-akhawat lain juga. saya percaya lebih kurang sama je pengalaman kami :)]

Saya pernah dengar/baca bahawasanya amatlah penting untuk kita menjaga batas-batas sebelum perkahwinan sebab perkahwinan adalah asbab untuk manusia dikurniakan zuriat. Dan semestinya kita nak melahirkan zuriat yang soleh/solehah. Sekiranya sejak belum kahwin pun kita dah CUBA jaga sebaiknya syariat Allah dalam mendirikan sebuah rumahtangga, insyaAllah keberkatan akan mengalir kepada zuriat.

Apa yang meyakinkan saya untuk berkahwin dengan Akhi Azmi :) adalah kerana saya berpegang pada hadis yang menyuruh kita memilih seseorang kerana agamanya insyaAllah kita akan selamat. Paling kurang tak tinggal solat, puasa, hormat orang tua dan menunaikan perkara-perkara yang wajiblah. Dan memandangkan saya seorang akhawat, apabila Allah memberi pilihan untuk berkahwin dengan seorang akhi, what else can I ask for. Selain daripada tu banyaklah faktor-faktor sampingan lain. Ada yang personal ada yang tak. Ada yang penting ada yang tak berapa penting. Saya cuba menunaikan permintaan Ibu yang inginkan menantu daripada Terengganu dan juga permintaan Ibu supaya menyegerakan perkara yang baik. Semoga ada keberkatan di situ.

Kena ask around jugak sebelum membuat keputusan. Sebab selain daripada agama, penting jugak untuk ada chemistry/keserasian. Kalau kita ni jenis serius dan bosan dah dengan diri sendiri yang serius maybe kita nak pasangan yang kelakar dan cool, jadi carilah orang beragama yang kelakar dan cool. Pastu kena boleh menerima keluarga dia. Kalau kita tak suka keluarga orang kaya dato' datin tak payahlah kahwin dengan anak orang kaya. Carilah orang yang beragama daripada keluarga sederhana ataupun keluarga orang susah.

Tapi tak semestinya akan dapat semua. Jangan memilih sangat. Cukuplah kalau bakal pasangan beragama, baik dan serasi dalam beberapa perkara. The world is not perfect. Kita tak perfect. Orang lain pun tak perfect.

Solat hajat dan istikarah secara berterusan :) Memang akan ada masa kita meragui keputusan kita, tapi kalau Allah tetapkan hati insyaAllah he/she is THE ONE. Keep praying and InsyaAllah akan memberi yang terbaik untuk kita. Kalau berkahwin dan berpisah walaupun setelah rasa he/she is the one, itu adalah ujian untuk orang-orang terpilih. Tentu saja Allah mempunyai rancangan yang lebih baik :)

p/s: harapnya saya bukan nak bajet bagus and what not. simply sharing. tiada daya dan upaya melainkan dengan Allah. semoga ada keberkatan di sebalik perkongsian. ameen :)

Hope that helps to dear miss/mr anonymous :) Wallahua'lam

A working person now :)

2011-10-12T11:15:00.003+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

As a new teacher, my lecturer and my mother gave me some useful advices.

- Observe.
- Observe..
- Observe...
- Berkawan dengan semua.
- Banyakkan bekerja. Kurangkan bercakap.
- Dapatkan nasihat dan panduan daripada guru-guru senior yang semangat dan produktif.
- Mencuba semua tugasan yang diberikan. Jangan sempitkan pemikiran. Cuba dulu. Kalau setelah cuba memang tak berjaya takpelah.
- Jangan lurus sangat.
- Jangan cerita semua benda pasal diri kita pada orang. Selain daripada diri kita, semuanya adalah orang lain yang berbeza watak dan personaliti daripada kita. Jangan anggap semua orang berfikiran macam kita. Kadang-kadang kita cerita sesuatu, kemudian orang akan manipulate/ubahsuai apa yang kita cerita. Ini pun ada kaitan dengan perangai lurus jugak.

An officer in JPN Pahang also gave me lots of useful advices.

Tapi apa yang saya paling ingat adalah...

Officer : Macam mana nak pastikan gaji kita halal?
Me : Zakat?
Officer : Bukan... Dengan bekerja dengan bersungguh-sungguh dan tak curi tulang. Tak masuk kelas lambat. Tak buat kerja lain waktu di sekolah.
Me : Ooo
Officer : Setiap minit kamu dibayar lebih kurang 70sen.

But I do find it quite hard to fulfill the requirement of bekerja non stop for about 7 hours. But I promise myself to be extra careful with my working time. Kalau perlu rehat, rehatlah. Tapi mesti berusaha untuk mengisi masa dengan sebaiknya...insyaAllah.

And last but not least, my own nasihat for myself :

Bekerja Lillahitaala! Kutip pahala all the time, anytime anywhere. InsyaAllah :)

Of posting and Penang

2011-10-09T14:15:00.002+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Before doing my KPLI in Kedah, I had never been to Penang and Perlis. Kedah pernahlah sekali dua. For me, bahagian utagha sangat jauh from Terengganu dan rasa sangat sangat tak familiar.

It turned out that I like Kedah. Very very much.
Jitra and Alor Setar especially :)
I don't mind living anywhere(tapi lagi best kalau dekat bandar lah huhu). As long as I have a housemate! Kalau ada family or close friends around tu bonus lah. Living alone would be my worst nightmare. Which explains my recent anxiousness when I was being informed that I'll be posted to Pahang. Takut sangat kalau tercampak sorang-sorang in the land of nowhere. But Allah is being too nice to me, He gave me Kuantan :) and I am currently living with my sister and my nieces and nephew.

I can never thank you enough, dear Allah. I promised Allah, if I were to be posted in Kuantan, I'll turn over a new leaf. Allah knows, I have so many flaws. I will try and rectify them insyaAllah. I will try my best and keep my promise.

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I promised a friend to try and write a review about my short trips to Penang :)

Seumur hidup ni tak pernah pun menjejakkan kaki ke Penang, not even during school trips. Last year, since I was studying in Jitra and Hubby lives in Penang, I had the chance to visit Penang (the island part) few times.

- Penang sangat bersih kalau tengok daripada atas jambatan. Sangat sedap mata memandang.
- Ada Queensbay Mall. Besar jugak. Best jugak. Kalau hubby ada kelas, saya sanggup ditinggalkan di Queensbay Mall :)
- Ada PMC - Penang Medical College where hubby is currently studying. Kalau orang tanya dekat mana PMC ni, cakap je dekat Padang Polo.
- Sistem bas dia bagus jugak. Ada Rapid Penang. Nampak agak reliable.
- Sangat Multi-cultured. Ada ramai Malay, Chinese and Indians.
- Jalan ada yang berbukit-bukit. Kalau naik bas boleh rasa menaik dan menurun bukit.
- Bad bad traffic. Beware of reckless drivers. Bahaya naik motor.
- Relatively 'green'. Negeri lain baru nak start 'no plastic bags on saturday'. Kalau Penang in certain malls, everyday is no plastic bag day. Correct me if I'm wrong. Sebab saya pernah nampak signboard dekat satu mall ni cakap camtu. Tapi tak tahulah kalau sekadar my hallucination.
- Batu Feringghi. Pernah pergi tapi sekejap sangat. Very very crowded during school holidays.Kereta merangkak je.
- Ada tempat makan bernama Padang Brown. Famous.
- Ada banyak tempat makan. Yang menghadap laut pun banyak. Best place for sea food?
- Ada tempat nama Lorong Kulit. Boleh beli barang-barang antik dan second hand.
- Sewa rumah tak murah.

Pernah pergi short trips je to Penang... Tak pernah actually berholiday and bersantai-santai. Jadi, tak boleh nak give a holiday type of review huhu.

Till then :)

The only gambar in Penang. Di suatu petang di suatu restoran mengadap laut.
We do look like twins right? kembar lelaki perempuan. huhu.

The precious gift of life

2011-09-27T13:41:00.005+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I'm re-reading 'The Last Lecture' by the late Randy Pausch.

Mixed feelings. I am yet to know the place for my first posting. It is definitely in Pahang. But where. Hoping for Kuantan. But it is all in Allah's hands.Que Sera Sera Whatever will be will be. Previously was hoping for Terengganu. But Allah knows best. So He gave me Pahang instead. Kita selalu nak sesuatu simply sebab kita nak. Tapi Allah dah kata, mungkin apa yang kita nak tu tak baik untuk kita and apa yang kita taknak tu baik untuk kita.

So I must be grateful.
Grateful with life.
Grateful that I am still alive.
Grateful with all the blessings that God has bestowed upon me for the past 24 years.

Randy Pausch wrote...

"Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted. And experience is often the most valuable thing that you have to offer."

This is a phrase worth considering at every brick wall we encounter and at every disappointment. It is also a reminder that failure is not just acceptable, it's often essential.

Maybe Allah wants to give me the gift of experience by sending me off to Pahang.

While I'm writing this entry, I am still flipping through the book and tears fill my eyes when I read through the few final sections. It was very hard for him to say goodbye to his wife and three kids when he was diagnosed with 10 tumors in his liver. And he had only a few months to live. He was at the peak of his life, being a successful professor and all, leading a happy family life and suddenly he was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.

I should really be grateful with life and make the most out of it.
Some people really wanted to live and they simply couldn't. 'Life' were taken away from them.

You guys should really read the book, and you'll appreciate life more. In Malaysia we have our very own version of Randy Pausch, the late Mas Afzal. His blog - 'Not the Primrose Path'. Such an inspiring person.

Let us start now. Appreciate every second that we have. I know that I am not the best person to give this advice. I am full of flaws. Tapi, kita perlu sentiasa berusaha membaiki diri dan pada masa yang sama menyeru orang lain untuk turut membaiki diri. In arabic, Islah Nafsak Wad'u Ghairak.

On a similar note, quoting Prof. Muhaya "Jangan mengejar cita-cita, tapi kejarlah erti kehidupan"

Appreciate life. Before this precious gift of life is being taken away from us.

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Here is the link to a similar entry to this one. I wrote it in February 2010.

CLICK : Stop Worrying, be grateful and start living.

Very similar! Haha. I talked about Randy Pausch, about how I should be grateful with life.

Budget holiday in Langkawi :)

2011-09-25T16:12:00.007+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

One day and a half in Langkawi, Alhamdulillah it was great and fun :) We forced ourselves to go there in June 2011 simply because it was my final week in Jitra. Orang kata, rugilah kalau dah duduk Kedah tapi tak pergi Langkawi. Jadi kami pun pergilah for a very short stay. We were on a very limited budget.

BUDGET HOLIDAY in Langkawi for 2 persons for one day and a half : RM400

Petrol from Jitra-Kuala Perlis to and fro = around RM40
Parking lot at Kuala Perlis = RM10(per day) x 2 days = RM20
Ferry to and fro = RM18(one way) x 2 people x 2 times = RM72
Kereta sewa Iswara yang sangat tua = RM50 for 24 hours
Petrol for kereta sewa = RM20
Motel at Pantai Cenang = RM80
Entrance fee to Langkawi Underwater World = RM28(adult with MyKad) x 2 = RM56
T-shirt Langkawi = RM20
Fridge magnet = RM10 for 3
Food, junk food = RM30
Total = RM398.
Round it up =RM400

I don't think you can do something 'more jimat' than that. Unless u cut the trip to Langkawi Underwater Worlds, and don't buy any souvenir at all and makan twisties je. But then, macam tak holiday langsung lah? Coz tak do any sightseeing, tak beli pape souvenir and tak makan anything heavy. Huhu.

Langkawi Underwater World wasn't that great. I had greater expectations. But being a biologist,saya excited lah jugak tengok semua haiwan-haiwan laut :)

Lunch first day - nasi lemak bungkus from Jitra

Hubby & Fish

Hubby & Seal

Hubby membuat budget - our only junk food : MR Potato!

RM80 motel, facing Cenang Beach

Cenang Beach

The famous Lang statue - walking distance from the Jetty

Kereta sewa yang agak usang tapi alhamdulillah ok lagi :)

Shopping tak murah mana pun, walaupun duty-free. Kedai-kedai dia kalau yang duty-free lebih kurang macam kedai-kedai duty-free di mana-mana international airport. Tapi kitorang tak sempat pergi mana-mana mall yang besar pun. Jadi, mungkin ada lagi tempat-tempat murah yang kami tak pergi.

Banyak historical sites to visit. Kalau nak pergi banyak tempat, sehari setengah memang tak cukup. Mungkin perlukan 3 hari. Kami tak pergi satu pun, just nak pergi berehat je taknak rush around :)

Pergi cari chalet sendiri and kereta sewa sendiri. You can get better deals. Sebab dekat Jetty, ada orang akan offer macam-macam pakej dan diorang punya taktik adalah by saying 'nanti kat sana takut dah penuh motel and kereta sewa dah habis terutamanya kalau musim cuti sekolah and weekends.'

Underwater world not bad, tapi bahagian yang betul-betul rasa macam bawah air tu pendek je sebenarnya.

Bawak makanan daripada rumah lagi bagus :) untuk first day jelah. Bawak maggi pun bagus.

People love to ask whether or not you've been to Langkawi. Macam wajiblah Langkawi ni dilawati sebagai seorang rakyat Malaysia. The next time people talk about Langkawi, I can finally say 'dah pegi dah :)'. Yeay.

Feel free to share your very own experience in Langkawi. Would love to here all about it.

Till then! :)

Stop quoting these hadiths.

2011-09-19T07:44:00.000+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Recently, I grabbed hold of a very informative book on hadis palsu. The book is indeed an eye-opener to me, preventing me from using those hadis palsu in my speeches or actions in the future.

In total, there are 40 hadis palsu that the author chose to compile in that particular book.

I choose to share 6 of them here today...

~~"Tuntutlah ilmu walau ke negara Cina"~~ - Ibn Taimiyah menyatakan bahawa hadis ini adalah palsu kerana kecacatan yang terdapat pada sanadnya.
~~"Tuntutlah ilmu dari buaian hingga ke liang lahad"~~ - Tidak ada asal-usul bagi hadis ini dan ia adalah palsu (Syeikh Said bin Soleh dalam bukunya Ahadith Mardudah). Maksud hadis ini benar, tapi ianya tidak boleh disandarkan kepada Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. Ini kerana tiada sumber sahih yang menyatakan bahawa Baginda s.a.w. pernah menyebut perkara ini dengan lafaz di atas.
~~"Aku adalah kota ilmu,dan Ali adalah pintunya"~~
~~Doa ketika membasuh setiap anggota wuduk~~ Dalam sanad hadis ini terdapat pelapor yang bernama 'Ubbad bin Suhaib. Menurut Ibn Hibban, "Beliau('Ubbad bin Suhaib) melaporkan hadis munkar yang dapat dipastikan ianya palsu." Ibn Al-Jauzi menyatakan hadis ini tidak sahih daripada Rasulullah s.a.w.
~~"Aku melihat Abdul Rahman bin Auf masuk syurga secara merangkak"~~
~~"Kita pulang daripada jihad yang kecil kepada jihad yang lebih besar." Para sahabat bertanya "Apakah jihad yang lebih besar?" Nabi Muhammad menjawab : "Jihad hati memerangi hawa nafsu"~~ Menurut Ibnu Taimiyah, hadis ini tidak ada asal-usulnya dan tidak ada seorang pun daripada ahli ilmu yang mengatakan ianya daripada perkataan dan perbuatan Rasulullah.

This is the cover of the book, sangat informative dan harganya just RM9.

Don't hesitate to buy one :)

Car : part 1

2011-09-12T16:25:00.005+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I can drive now, Alhamdulillah :) and my hubby and I own a car, our first car ever :)

About a year ago, I enrolled into KPLI. To those who are not familiar with the term KPLI, it is a shortform for Kursus Perguruan Lepasan Ijazah. Hubby foresaw that I needed to master basic driving skills and that I needed to own a car. He continuously gave me free consultations (read: nag me =P) about buying a car. We received immediate responds from our family members.My mum was very positive about it. My siblings were also very supportive but they reminded me about how costly it is to maintain a car. Hence I should really give careful considerations before deciding to buy a car. There was also a suggestion for me to do car-pooling with my housemates. Kiranya menumpang kereta orang lah.

In the end we decided to buy a car ; a white MyVi . Plate number : TBA 7017

The plate number seems a bit random right? 7017 tak macam plate number yang dibeli. Huhu. But in all seriousness, I PAID for that TBA 7017! hehe. I like the number 7. I was born in July, 17th July to be more specific, and I got married in July. My father's car - WCP 700. My brother's car - WUG 701. So, TBA 7017 konon-konon macam ada kaitan lah dengan 700 and 701. Whatever lah.

Mama loves to give meanings to things. So she said TBA = Tetap Bersama Allah. 70 = istighfar 70 kali sehari. 17 tu birthday lah. Apart from my mother's interpretation, I just came up with this : 17 is also the minimum number of times we recite Al-Fatihah in a day right?

My plate number is indeed very meaningful if we view it through my mother's deep interpretation! Walaupun sekilas pandang, nampak seperti bukan number yang perlu dibeli. Definitely worth my RM200.

InsyaAllah later sambung lagi :) Ingatkan nak tulis pasal driving experience, pasal pergi beli kereta seorang diri!,pasal takaful insurance, pasal my basic knowledge on cars :D walaubagaimanapun,need to go to bed now. Tomorrow I'll be going to Kota Bharu. Amek angin and most importantly, visiting my friends :)

Being unemployed is rather depressing. Only Allah and hubby knows how depressed I am. It is not that I am not grateful. I am a bit depressed and bored. Having no commitments at all. All the time. I know I should pick up a hobby. But I just can't decide yet. Ramadhan and Raya and Online business and Kittens filled my time before this, but now, no kitten already. Tata :)

blog illiterate

2011-09-10T16:37:00.004+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I'm trying to give my blog a better appearance. Better in what sense? I don't know. I know that I want it to look better, but I don't know what to add and how to add things.

My knowledge on layout and template and design is so limited.

In the end, seperti biasa just tukar background. Pathetic.

I kept blaming my hubby. Manusia kan suka menyalahkan orang lain, walaupun orang tersebut tak patut dipersalahkan. hehe.

'Kenapa hubby ni tak pandai pasal blog. Hubby ni IT illiterate betullah. Bla bla bla...'

He would answer 'Hubby bukan IT illiterate lah. Hubby ni blog illiterate je. Not everyone blog and not everyone can blog'.

Hehe. Alaaa... nak blog canggih jugak. Yang ada macam-macam tab. Plus I really-really want to organize the labels for my blog entries. Tapi in the end selalu tak boleh nak decide berapa labels nak buat and nak cari nama yang catchy untuk labels...walaupun bukannya suatu kewajipan untuk cari nama catchy. Last-last malas nak fikir and tak terbuat.

it is all in the mind!

2011-09-06T03:52:00.004+01:00

I've just re-discovered one thing :)

"it is all in the mind"

"mind over matter"

betul kan? If we can control our mind - things will definitely be better, insyaAllah! If we let the mind runs loose, bila ada problem atau issue je, mulalah hidup rasa sunyi sedih berserabut . But if we decide to be happy, to be productive, to be good, minda kita will follow and eventually feelings and actions kita akan follow and cuba merealisasikan apa yang minda kita decide to do.

wallahua'lam.

what say you? :) do you agree or disagree?

Raya.

2011-09-05T01:51:00.006+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Alhamdulillah for a great raya :)

I do feel that the Malaysian's way of celebrating raya is a bit corrupting to the soul. Tak tahulah kenapa.

Somehow rasa macam susah payah puasa menahan diri and cuba jadi baik and bila raya, tiba-tiba jadi sibuk terlajak dengan persiapan dan dengan beraya. Solat pun tak khusyuk, quran pun tak sempat baca. Apa yang tinggal hanyalah PENAT, PENAT DAN PENAT. Dan tempoh rasa penat and tak khusyuk dengan Tuhan ni adalah selama 3-4 hari raya. Kalau penat dan masih rasa dekat dengan Allah dan masih mampu berniat lillahitaala dalam kebanyakan waktu, itulah perkara yang ideal. Tapi kalau hanya tinggal penat semata, tak bestlah camtu. Rasa macam in a split second mood beribadat yang semua orang rasa time ramadhan bertukar jadi mood raya yang lagho.

Well, memang Nabi s.a.w suruh kita bergembira - berbaju baru, makan lebih sikit, ziarah menziarahi. Tapi tak tahulah Nabi s.a.w suruh kita bergembira sampai tahap ni ke tak - bertabarruj, makan sampai taklarat bangun, bersosial melampau-lampau etc etc.

And what disappoints me the most is, momentum ramadhan tu saya rasa hilang ditelan raya. Lepas 4-5 hari baru nak recover balik. Rasa tak best. Takut mati masa tengah lagho. Lagho tak semestinya bermaksud tengah buat maksiat etc, for me lagho is when you are not khusyuk with Allah.

What say you? Adakah concern saya ini valid dan anda rasai juga. Or is it just me? Maybe saya je yang lemah dan malas bukan salah raya pun. hehe.

Feeling of loss

2011-08-17T04:03:00.009+01:00

-Ponceng-

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I haven't even gotten the chance to write about my three kittens that I adopted from the fish market and now they are gone.

Gone=Missing=Lost.

Missing since 6 p.m yesterday. I think the chances of me getting the kitten back is very thin, maybe 0.01%.

I own three kittens. My neighbour own one. In total there are 4 kittens - similar size and similar colour.

Dan dengan dukacitanya mereka hilang bersama-sama.
I've searched everywhere in my Taman, even went to the next taman, and to the kampung nearby. Batang hidung pun tak nampak.

The conclusion that I can make is - someone took it. Tak mungkin kucing tu pergi berjalan secara beramai-ramai. Dan kalau ye pun pergi berjalan, tak mungkin sampai lesap dalam masa satu malam. 4 ekor sekaligus.

The feeling of loss is like no other.

Kalau betul kucing-kucing saya dicuri. InsyaAllah kita berjumpa kembali di padang mahsyar wahai pencuri kucing. May Allah punish you accordingly in this life and in the hereafter. Unless if you return my cats back, and I'll forgive you.

I know I might sound a bit harsh to the pencuri. Tapi Islam agama yang adil kan? Orang yang dizalimi akan dibela kan? Doa yang makbul antaranya adalah doa orang yang dizalimi. Memang ada option untuk memaafkan, but not now. Again, let me reiterate - the feeling of loss is like no other. Perbuatan mencuri is such a serious act in Islam, if caught guilty hukumnya potong tangan.

I don't need any comment such as 'ala kucing je'. if you raise something up and take care of it with all your heart - be it a baby, a cat, a plant- you'll understand my feelings. Kalau sakit bawak pergi klinik. Kalau taknak makan, suapkan susu. Kalau demam, selimutkan. Kalau kotor, mandikan. Setiap kali ada kereta nak keluar, check bawah kereta takut kucing ada.

Redha is easier said than done :( Terutamanya dengan perkara yang kita sangat sayang.

conceng, ponceng & tonceng

-conceng & tonceng-

I'll miss you badly my ponceng babies :( Hopefully wherever you are, you are treated nicely and loved dearly, ameen. Kakak loves you, cares about you and cries for you.

I accept this as my ujian ramadhan ya Allah. I will try and accept and move on.
Semoga ianya mengkifarahkan dosa.

Maybe Allah wants to let me taste sedikit perasaan kehilangan - orang lain hilang anak, kematian keluarga, rumah terbakar.

I know that other people's losses are bigger than me. But I simply can't help feeling sad. If you're sad, you can't help it right?

Lastly, semoga pencuri kucing rasa susah, gelisah, dan pulangkan kucing-kucing saya.
NO ONE SHOULD STEAL ANYTHING FROM ANYONE.

My wedding experience - final part

2011-08-14T15:10:00.007+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

A few more things to share about weddings in general and 'my wedding' in particular :)

- Saya dah bagi syarat dekat hubby yang saya taknak any photographer yang jenis ambil gambar ada pose-pose intim. So that was the first requirement in choosing our wedding photographer. Pose intim - such as baring-baring atas katil, action macam nak kiss? kiss? etc etc. Sorry to say tapi segan ada malu pun ada. Tak kisahlah gambar tu nak buat simpanan sendiri ke nak share dengan orang ke, kesimpulannya tak suka. Sebab photographer tu orang luar kan. Apa hak dia nak suruh kita intim-intim. Dan kita sendiri pun, perlulah ada perasaan malu sebab photographer tersebut orang luar. Dan perlulah ada perasaan malu untuk tayang gambar intim kepada orang luar. Alhamdulillah I was firm enough with my stand and Alhamdulillah my photographers were quite understanding. In the end my wedding pictures almost semua candid ataupun pose biasa saja - hoyeah :) .

*pose intim tak sama dengan outdoor photo shoot. So, jangan terasa kalau korang ada buat outdoor photo shoot :) intimate means aksi-aksi yang sepatutnya between suami isteri je.

Lesson: Never let people impose anything that is against your principle or your wish - ON YOU.

- Bersanding. Kami memang taknak bersanding and memang tak bersanding pun. Tapi rupanya ada adat 'bertemu menantu' since majlis for both sides buat on the same day. Adat bertemu menantu ni, bila semua makcik-makcik(aunties, neighbours) belah hubby datang jumpa and salam dengan pengantin perempuan and kasi duit. Kiranya nak bagi makcik-makcik belah lelaki kenal pengantin perempuan lah. Adat bertemu menantu ni ada dekat certain places je. Tak sure negeri lain ada ke tak. Rasa macam takde.

Kami berdua naive dan tak tahu pasal adat ni dan macam mana proses dia. At first I requested for the belah lelaki people to come and see me in my room. Tapi somehow, rupanya kena jumpa kat bawah dekat pelamin. The pelamin was not meant for any event except for bergambar-gambar. So, kami berdua pun kenalah turun balik and duduk dekat pelamin. Sangat-sangat tak suka perasaan macam bersanding. Huhu.

Selepas kejadian, baru kami terfikir yang sepatutnya hubby tak payah duduk sekali. Coz pengantin perempuan je yang makcik-makcik tersebut nak jumpa.Tapi tak terfikir lah pulak masa tu. Lepas dah habis baru terfikir. Que sera sera whatever will be will be :)

-Tudung. Make sure at least menutup dada :) Kalau lagi labuh lagi baguslah.

- Honeymoon. Upon my sister's advice, kami terus pergi road trip the next day after nikah. Honeymoon penting especially untuk orang yang tak bercinta sebelum kahwin. Huhu. Kami kahwin melalui proses taaruf, cakap telefon pun tak pernah. Jadi, sangat malu time lepas kahwin. Jadi, kena elakkan berada di rumah dalam proses untuk mengenali each other. Kalau duduk rumah, mak ayah, nenek, adik beradik mesti suspend nak tengok layanan kita (kaum perempuan) pada suami. Well, bukannya kita tak reti kan, tapi mestilah awkward lagi. Bila awkward akan jadi clumsy. Mula lah air tumpahlah apelah. Jadi, pergilah honeymoon a.s.a.p. insyaAllah balik rumah nanti dah tak awkward sangat.

I think basically that is everything that I wanted to share :) Benda-benda lain ada banyak lagi. Tapi taknak share dah. Four entries on wedding, more than enough I think :)

InsyaAllah in future boleh share pasal marriage. Marriage is an ongoing process.

As the saying goes 'Marriage is not a noun, it's a verb. It isn't something you get, it's something you do. It's the way you love your partner every day :) '

visit our wedding website : Our story :)

http://www.mywedding.com/nisyanazmi/stories.html

My wedding experience part 3

2011-08-13T15:59:00.003+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

More about my wedding experience :)

- Hantaran. Siap sehari sebelum reception :D Huhu. Asyik delay dan delay. Thought of doing the hantaran myself. Tapi tak buat-buat. Sampailah 3 hari sebelum reception, start panicking! If you want my advice, kalau rasa diri tak kreatif mana. Takyahlah berangan-angan tinggi nak buat hantaran sendiri, in the end cuak je sebab tak siap-siap. Hantar je kedai :) Tapi kalau tight budget, hmm, suruhlah mak saudara ke kakak ke. My sister is very creative, but she was very busy at that time. Yeah, tiba-tiba nak kahwin. Should not have high expectations and should make do dengan apa yang ada.

and yes. I think berlaku pembaziran duit pada hantaran. Can't help it! Gosh, the modern world type of wedding is full of pembaziran wang. Just imagine, hiasan hantaran yang cikai-cikai pun at least RM30 per dulang. Kalau 9 hantaran = RM 270. Tu kalau yang cikai, kalau yang tak cikai?
Memanglah kita kata takkan nak biarkan dulang tu macam tu je. Tak hias pape. Yes I agree, and saya pun buat. Tapi I don't know lah Allah redha ke tak...Tapi maybe kalau kita guna balik semua hiasan-hiasan tu, maybe tak jadi membazir dah? So, usahakanlah. Guna bakul untuk letak hantaran is a good option. Boleh guna lagi lepas tu :)

- I heard that some brides shave their eye brows and pakai bulu mata palsu during their weddings. It was an absolute no no for me. Kenapa nak shave kening? I don't get it. Terikut-ikut sangat ke dengan budaya barat. Bukan dalam Islam tak boleh ke... Wallahua'lam. Any ustaz/ustazah here? Tapi kalau betul haram, means benda tu Allah tak suka dan tak approve, nape nak buat jugak... Bulu mata palsu- my eyelashes can be considered as the shortest eyelashes in the world, huhu.And yet, tak pakai pun fake eye lashes. But I simply couldn't be bothered and I couldn't care less. Hukum dia...? Again, any ustaz ustazah...? Do enlighten us :)

- Baju nikah and baju reception. Since I only had 20 days to prepare for my akad and 4o days to prepare for my reception, it was mission impossible to have (nice)wedding dresses to be custom made for me. Went to a few bridal boutique(tak banyak pun kedai di Terengganu). In the end, after surveying a few boutiques, I decided to rent one baju nikah and one baju reception at a boutique owned by a chinese lady. It seemed that her dresses were the best options for lower middle class people like me. Tak banyak pun options. So, must not be very choosy. Baju nikah= baju kurung Malaysia. Baju reception= baju apa entah. Cam jubah? tapi ada train? Train = kain meleret dekat belakang jubah.

But I kept reminding the auntie to alter the baju for me to be as loose as it can be. Mesti makcik tu pun dah bosan dengar. Setiap kali datang try baju mesti remind suruh longgarkan baju. Tak tipu. Tu pun I was not sure if the baju was shari'e enough or not. Shari'e = Parallel with Islamic teachings. Mama kata baju zaman sekarang memang fashion ikut nafsu dan ikut trend orang bukan Islam.

Till then :) Hopefully my sharings is beneficial to others. Apa yang baik ambiklah, apa yang tak baik, takyah amek...

My wedding experience part 2

2011-08-13T05:26:00.003+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

This is the continuation of my previous entry- basically I am reminiscing about my wedding which took place a year ago :)

- I didn't hire any professional make-up person. Professional here doesn't mean orang yang make-up kan celebrities or what not. Professional here means that it is his/her profession to make-up brides and and grooms. Saya rasa membazir. Plus, again,,,,, mama did not approve of heavy make-ups. Dan saya pun memang tak suka. So, my sister and my sister-in-law were my make-up artists :D

* My point here is tak perlu ikut today's trend sangat. Do it your way. Kalau rasa perlu and nak sangat, go ahead :) kalau rasa tak perlu tak payahlah paksa diri. Semua tu kan duit. Duit ni Allah akan tanya dekat akhirat nanti. Astaghfirullah. Semoga Allah ampunkan semua dosa-dosa yang ada. In case ada benda yang tak perlu pun, tapi sebab nafsu kita buat jugak.

- Hubby tak buat any wedding reception on his side, kiranya joinkan sekali two wedding receptions. The fact that he was able to save money(from his scholarship) for the maskahwin and wang hantaran and honeymoon etc etc at such an early age - simply to marry me - masyaAllah no words can describe my gratefulness- may Allah reward you with the best rewards hubby. So, kalau takde extra money untuk buat majlis bertandang and ada understanding parents like mine, ok je. Tak payahlah sampai tak kahwin sebab tak cukup duit.

But alhamdulillah, takde majlis bertandang pun, so far happy je :) In KL, rasanya normal je belah lelaki joinkan sekali majlis dengan belah perempuan. Tapi in Terengganu, belum lagi. So, ada jelah orang yang akan bertanya-tanya dengan nada ingin tahu 'kenapa tak buat majlis sambut menantu'. Ignore jelah. Kita yang paling kenal dan faham dengan situasi diri kita.

Till then :)

My wedding experience

2011-08-12T15:44:00.005+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I don't remember writing an entry about my wedding.
So maybe memang tak pernah tulis pasal wedding pun. huhu.

My wedding experience (part of it)...

-I skipped my graduation day simply to be wedded to darling hubby :)

-I decided to get married sebulan setengah from the nikah date. Nikah 10/7/10. Decide 20/5/10. Huhu hubby told me that he kept getting heart attacks due to my indecisiveness. I felt very inadequate to become someone's wife.

-Nikah preparation took place in just 20 days. I touched down Malaysia on 20/6/10.

- We did not have any engagement ceremony.

-I did not bother to inai my fingers. I was (and still am) too lazy to be bothered with petty petty things.

-I forgot to wear my wedding ring during my reception. Absent mindedness. And memang tak suka pakai ring. Rasa rimas sikit.

- My wedding cake was scrumptious and everything about our wedding was lovely to our eyes. Alhamdulillah.

- We arranged for an outdoor photo shoot but later we were too tired and too lazy to be bothered with it. So, we cancelled the photoshoot. Plus, mama did not really approve of us carrying out the photo shoot. She said membazir. Well, wedding memang banyak benda membazir pun. Hiasan-hiasan semua tu. Dah tau membazir tapi very tempting to heart. Aih.

- Hantaran 9 berbalas 9. My hubby was (and still is ) so sweet. He told me that it is the husband's responsibility to provide everything for his wife. Jadi, dia tak faham kenapa perempuan yang kena bagi hantaran lebih; the norm is 9 berbalas 7. 9 daripada belah perempuan and 7 daripada belah lelaki.

Why in the world am I writing an entry about my wedding experience?
Hubby is not coming back for the weekend.
Thinking of him. We've been happily married(alhamdulillah) for 1 year and 1 month.

Trying to inspire others as well.
Kalau tak buat benda-benda kecil such as inai, outdoor photoshoot, bertunang.
Tak mati pun. Kahwin jugak :)

Have your stand in everything you do.

p/s: insyaAllah nanti saya sambung 'my wedding experience part 2 (kalau perasaan nak share tu masih ada) huhu.

being organised promotes happiness.

2011-08-11T03:36:00.003+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I still remember what my sister told me a few years back,

"being organised promotes happiness".

Very true. Tapi susahnya nak be organised.

I think I've blogged about this before, tapi still nak blog lagi on the same issue for the umpteen time. Huhu. Because the problem is still around.

Teramat sukar untuk maintain perasaan untuk menjadi organise dan systematic.

Nak buat tu takdelah susah mana, tapi nak maintain tu.

My mum is such a systematic person where she plans her life daily, weekly, monthly.
And I wonder why am I unable to be just like her.

The answer lies in my willingness to jihad. In order to maintain a good habit, a systematic life, we must jihad right?

It is easy to simply clutter all your stuff on your work table, campak-campak baju on the bed after wearing it, not washing your tudung, leave things on the floor etc etc etc.

Tapi it takes extra effort and willpower to put things in place straight away after using it. Unless you have OCD -Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Hee. OCD= perfectionist.

So, let us mujahadah to plan our lives and to live our plans.
And don't ever forget this - putting things in place makes our life a whole lot easier. Searching for things always delays us and decrease our productivity.

p/s: saya suka entry bergambar, but I am too lazy tu put up pictures in my own blog. My concern is ; kalau nak tunggu cari gambar, last-last tak tulis ape-ape. ayte?

Konflik tudung

2011-08-06T08:55:00.008+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the
Most Merciful :)

Baju raya dah siap.
Tudung raya dah beli.

Alhamdulillah.

Kalau keadaan mengizinkan, saya suka bersikap proaktif. Saya tak suka kelam kabut di saat-saat terakhir. If I can avoid it, I will avoid being a last minute person.

Hubby has been nagging me about 'tudung besar'.
I am an akhawat and yet my tudung biasa-biasa aje.

I bought a few tudung besar when I was in Kedah. But some people commented that the tudungs didn't look good on me. BUKAN SEBAB BESAR. Tapi sebab my choice of colours. Semua dull(Under normal conditions, I always appear tak bermaya, wearing dull tudungs make it worse). And jugak sebab jenis kain, nampak tak kemas. Well, maybe bukan salah tudung sebenarnya, maybe salah pemakai yang memang comot.

Then, I changed to a few tudung Mortada (from Italy). Tudung Mortada ok. Besar, best, warna pun ok. But the problem is, tudung Mortada sukar didapati di Kuala Terengganu. Orang kata ada dekat Jalan TAR je. Bila lah nak pegi jalan TAR tu. huhu.

And this morning I mixed and matched my collection of tudungs with my new baju raya. Semua dah matching. Tapi ada 2 yang memang kecil sikit lah. Bawal saiz 45inci-ala size biasa tu-maybe for certain orang diorang rasa OK je, tapi for me, I do feel that I want to cover myself better. So, I decided to search for new ones to ganti the kecil ones. MESTI KENA ADA PERUBAHAN KAN daripada sebelum ramadhan dan selepas ramadhan.

Went to the famous Desa Murni which is 2 minutes away from my house. Tapi orang berduyun-duyun dalam tu as if raya is tomorrow. Cancelled shopping there and headed towards KT bus station. Atas stesen bas tu ada banyakkkkkk tudung and blouse and macam-macam benda lagi.

Tawaf stesen bas 5-6 kali. Sangat susah nak cari warna yang sama dengan warna tudung yang dah ada. Should have brought the baju, and not the tudung.

The dilemma is - nak beli tudung saiz apa. Dekat Terengganu ni, hanya ada saiz 45, 55 and 60 inches. 45 is too small and 55 is too big for me (at the moment). SUSAHLAH - nak jadi baik tapi nak jadi baik secara berperingkat-peringkat. Aih. Sepatutnya kalau nak jadi baik, pakai jelah saiz 55 terus.

Anyways, back to my so-called problem. Kenapalah pengeluar tak buat saiz 48 ke 50 ke. Would make it much much easier for me.

In the end I decided to buy size 55 for both colours and then pergi alter supaya menjadi saiz sederhana. Got this idea from a few friends of mine back in KPLI. They also had the same dilemma with me. Nak tudung besar sikit tapi taknak besar sangat. InsyaAllah one day when the time comes, I will try and pakai tudung yang labuh betul(ameen).

Alhamdulillah setelah di alter, the tudungs fit me and my needs well :)

Saya boleh faham bahawasanya orang yang belum bertudung pasti mempunyai konflik dalaman untuk berhijrah kepada memakai tudung. Lebih kurang jelah dengan orang yang dah bertudung and nak hijrah kepada bertudung lebih labuh.

Lebih kurang tapi TAK SAMA.

Orang tak bertudung masih berdosa mendedahkan keseluruhan aurat. Orang bertudung at least dah cover kepala and dada(hopefully). Unless kalau tudung sekadar untuk berfashion. Wallahua'lam.

Well, apa yang saya nak kata. Saya memahami konflik tersebut dan saya doakan kita semua berusaha menyelesaikan masalah masing-masing untuk mencapai redha Allah. InsyaAllah.

Can't fast. Can't pray. Oh no, what can I do to please Allah :(

2011-08-05T13:08:00.008+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Today is the 5th day of puasa.
One sixth of ramadhan has passed.

Tak lama lagi, without us realising it, we will have to bid goodbye to this special month :(

Jadi, amatlah rugi sekiranya kita tak berusaha bersungguh-sungguh untuk mengaut pelbagai keuntungan dan tawaran istimewa yang Allah telah sediakan. Kita mesti rasa sedih! dan kecewa! dengan diri sendiri sekiranya by the 5th day of puasa kita masih lagi tak excited dan berlumba-lumba untuk please kan Allah. Astaghfirullah.

A friend of mine requested for me to write on this topic:

Apa yang kaum hawa,wanita, perempuan boleh lakukan pada bulan ramadhan sekiranya mereka datang haid.

I'll try and write even though my knowledge on this issue is very basic.

Kerana saya berpegang pada hadis yang mengatakan bahawa, hak muslim yang lain atas kita yang mesti ditunaikan adalah memberi nasihat apabila diminta.

[Speaking about this, I am still indebted to a friend of mine who recently asked me to send her an email on islamic reminders. I used to do that when I was in the U.K. InsyaAllah, soon.]

This is the hadith:

Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda bahawasanya hak seorang muslim terhadap seorang muslim yang lain itu ada 6 perkara...

Apabila kamu menjumpainya, maka hendaklah kamu memberi salam kepadanya. Apabila dia menjemput kamu, hendaklah kamu memperkenankan jemputannya. Apabila dia meminta kamu memberi nasihat, hendaklah kamu menasihatinya. Apabila dia bersin lalu dia mengucap Alhamdulillah, hendaklah kamu berdoa kepadanya (dengan ucapan Yarhamkallah). Apabila dia sakit, hendaklah kamu lawatinya. Dan apabila dia mati, hendaklah kamu iringi jenazahnya

(Hadis Riwayat Muslim.)

Bila kita period atau datang haid, ibadat yang memang haram atas kita adalah solat dan puasa (ni kalau bukan masa pergi haji/umrah. kalau pergi haji/umrah maybe ada ibadat-ibadat lain yang kita tak boleh tunaikan).

But then, pada bulan ramadhan, solat dan puasa memang sesuatu yang semua orang kerjakan betul tak? Semua orang. Even budak darjah satu pun dah puasa sekarang ni. Jadi, bagi kaum wanita, mesti rasa sedih, tak best, frust bila ketinggalan daripada mengerjakan 2 ibadat utama ini..kan?

Since kita tak dapat puasa dan tak dapat solat tarawih, tahajud... ibadat yang tinggal untuk kita sama-sama berlumba adalah membaca Al-Quran.

Baca Al-Quran ni khilaf ulama'. Mostly orang dekat Malaysia pegang bahawa wanita haid tak boleh baca Quran. Tapi sekarang ni, pendedahan demi pendedahan telah dibuat bahawasanya terdapat pendapat bahawa wanita haid boleh membaca Al-Quran dengan niat zikir. Kerana zikir yang paling utama/afdhal adalah membaca Al-Quran. So, kita still boleh berusaha mengkhatamkan Quran. According to one ustaz, tersangat istimewa kalau kita dapat khatam Quran pada bulan Ramadhan sebab beribu-ribu malaikat akan turun pada kita.

Dalil-dalilnya pula (ini saya dapat daripada liqa' gabungan dengan ustazah dan makcik-makcik):

- tiada hadis sahih yang melarang wanita haid daripada membaca Al-Quran
- sewaktu haji wida' Saidatina Aisyah datang haid dan dia berdukacita, tapi Nabi s.a.w bersabda "Buatlah apa sahaja yang orang sedang haji buat kecuali solat dan tawaf". Nabi s.a.w tak sebut pun tak boleh baca Quran
- Al-Quran adalah zikir. Boleh dibaca sewaktu haid atau suci, berwuduk atau tak.
-Kalau buka kitab hadis bukhari, takde disebut langsung pasa orang haid tak boleh baca Quran.

Wallahua'lam. Ramai orang berilmu kata, kita kena berpegang dengan apa yang kita yakin dan selesa dan beramal dengan pegangan tersebut. Kalau selesa untuk berpegang dengan tak boleh baca, maka tak payah baca. Tapi kalau berpegang untuk boleh baca, maka silalah baca.

As for me I choose to still read the Quran walaupun sedang haid because saya selesa dan yakin dengan pendapat tersebut setelah berulang-ulang kali mendengar isu ini dibahaskan.

Next. ok, kita still nak pahala puasa kan walaupun tak puasa. Senang je. Pergi belanja orang berbuka takpun masakkan untuk orang berbuka. Simple right :) Hadis sila google. Ilmu lagi cepat masuk bila kita mencari dan mengkaji :D

Pastu kita pun nak menghidupkan malam right? Walaupun tak bertahajud, boleh je bangun malam and membaca Quran (sekiranya berpegang dengan pegangan dibolehkan membaca Quran walaupun sedang haid). Pastu beristighfar, berdoa.

Boleh mendengar talk agama, menonton talk agama. Membaca buku-buku agama untuk menambahkan taqwa. Menulis bahan-bahan agama. Mengajak kawan-kawan berbincang pasal agama.

Pastu jadikan sedekah sebagai rutin harian pada bulan ini. Sedekah... orang haid pun boleh buat :D
Pergi bagi beras dekat orang miskin. Letak duit dalam tabung-tabung yang ada. Bagi hadiah dekat family and kawan-kawan.

Last but not least, semua perkara yang kita buat yang berlandaskan syarak, kalau dibuat kerana Allah, maka ianya akan menjadi ibadat :) So, bekerja ke berniaga ke mengemas rumah ke walaupun masa haid,pada bulan puasa ni dan pada bulan-bulan yang lain akan mendapat pahala! bulan puasa mestilah berganda-ganda.

Wallahua'lam. Feel free to tambah-tambah here and there :)

Jadi usah kecewa dan bersedih hati. BANYAKKKKKKK sangat yang kita boleh buat walaupun tengah haid.

Hendak seribu daya, tak hendak tak usah cakap banyakla. Hehe.

'angin' kebaikan

2011-08-04T16:16:00.003+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Manusia ni memang ada angin. Berangin.

Angin in english equals to mood :D

Bila angin baca Quran datang, setengah jam baca pun tak puas lagi. Bila angin malas baca Quran berhari-hari tak baca (nauzubillah).

Pepatah melayu yang berkaitan dengan angin adalah 'hangat-hangat tahi ayam'.

Semangat sekejap je. Pastu hilang.

Macam mana supaya angin kita untuk berubah dan berbuat kebaikan tak hilang dan maintain? Mesti ada booster dia.

Contohnya angin untuk berniaga. Hehe.

Exactly a month ago, I started my online business: Pasar Payang Online (PPO).
Sebabnya, angin nak berbusiness tiba-tiba menjelma.
Tapi of course lah angin tu akan hilang bila kita sibuk dengan hal-hal lain. Tapi bila ada orang order or berminat, angin tu akan datang balik insyaAllah :)

So, tu example booster bila berniaga(online) lah.

Kalau ibadat pulak. Booster dia bila kita selalu dengar talk yang bagus-bagus, selalu bergaul dengan orang yang bagus-bagus, selalu bagi nasihat yang bagus-bagus.

Tulis blog pun ada booster dia. Contohnya bila kita remind diri tentang pahala menyebarkan kebaikan. Takpun bila ada orang motivate kita untuk terus menulis.

Maka kenali diri anda- so that you know how to boost yourself UP whenever the angin got lost.

Jangan biarkan angin yang baik hilang diterbangkan angin.

Ramadhan is generous

2011-08-04T11:21:00.004+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Ramadhan Kareem everyone :)
According to mr google, ramadhan kareem means ramadhan is generous.
Allah is indeed the Most Generous and he showers us with even more generosity in this ramadhan month. Tak terbayang lah macam mana. Bulan-bulan biasa Allah dah super baik dan pemurah. Bulan ramadhan bertambah-tambah lagi pemurah.

Jadi, kalau dah tahu macam tu, of course lah kita kena grab this opportunity right?

Kalau orang yang pernah duduk U.K. and Ireland (not sure about other european countries) - The day after Christmas is called The Boxing Day. On this particular day, semua kedai akan buat clearance sale yang MEGA. Banyak benda yang before ni mahal dan tak mampu dibeli, akan jadi affordable on that day.

Hmm, cane nak kaitkan dengan ramadhan is generous.

Kalau hari biasa, kita bayar 10 pounds dapat sehelai baju. Tapi pada boxing day bayar 10 pounds maybe boleh dapat 5 helai baju.

Sama jugak dengan Ramadhan. Kalau bulan biasa kita sedekah RM1 letsay dapat 1 pahala. Kalau bulan Ramadhan, kita sedekah RM 1 dapat 10-100 pahala. And sama lah jugak dengan ibadat-ibadat lain. Hari biasa buat satu ibadat maybe dapat 1 pahala, bulan puasa, buat the same ibadat dapat pahala berganda. Wallahua'lam.

Perbandingan je. Supaya kita berlumba-lumba beribadat!

Best sangat apa yang kawan saya ni tulis pasal Ramadhan...

Blessed month by Iman

Tata and wassalam! :)

Cloth diapers.

2011-07-23T15:43:00.009+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Semua orang ada baby, or akan ada baby!

The latest addition to our small family is:
Aman Zulqarnain bin Azrul Azwar = Putera kedua abangku yang tinggal di Jakarta.
Putera means anak in Indonesian language.
Nice name abang, tahniah!

And in about a week or so, my sister will give birth to another baby boy, insyaAllah
-still anonymous; the parents are so secretive about names hehe. Recalling the time when they were naming their first son(Umar Iskandar), the announcement of the name were only made after the father went and register the surat beranak.

Friends around me are also popping babies out.

*Peer-pressure. Sibling-pressure*

Huhu.
Biasalah. Kalau belum kahwin, pressure untuk kahwin. Bila dah kahwin rasa pressure untuk ada baby pulak.

We are not planning to have babies yet, since I haven't started working yet (and taktau pun akan dipostingkan ke mana!) and hubby is not yet finished with his studies.

But still, the pressure is there.

AND hubby has now started nagging and lecturing me about folic acid, breastfeeding and cloth diapers.

"Eat folic acid everyday...Nanti baby kita ada spinal bifida. kena makan MONTHS BEFORE pregnancy"
(taktau eja, and taktau sakit apa, and belum google. But I guess it has something to do with tulang belakang?)

"Nanti kena breastfeed sampai anak kita 2 tahun. Hubby tak suka susu formula. Susu formula tu bukan susu pun. Tau tak, breastfeed tu cara terbaik untuk kuruskan badan lepas pregnant..."
(I don't know if I would be disciplined enough...it's not that simple right? Kena pump etc).

"Susu tak kering pun...Bila on and off breastfeed memang lah kering. Kalau consistent, tak kering pun"

"Nanti kita guna cloth diapers eh. Jimat pun jimat. Environmental friendly summore"

Tonight is my first time viewing the picture of a cloth diaper(walaupun hubby dah promote since setengah tahun yang lepas, I did not put any effort to google it-still in denial state, takut nak beranak :p ).

Cloth diapers sangat cute and comel! I definitely wanna buy them for my future children :)

Huargh. I know that I want a baby soon and a few more babies in 10-15 years time. I am most excited about naming them! I have so many names in my mind :D
But, I still feel anxious and takut whenever I think about being a mother. And takut nak deliver baby jugak!

May Allah grant us soleh and solehah sons and daughters when the timing is right, ameen!
Just like everyone else, we hope to be the best parents to our children.

p/s: feel so old and matured when talking about babies.heh.

Alah bisa tegal biasa

2011-07-23T01:38:00.003+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious
and the Most Merciful :)

One of my good friends once prompted me
with this issue..

Untuk sesetengah orang,
susah bagi dia nak buat this good thing,
but untuk orang yang lain senang je.

For example, I find it hard to simply go and visit people.
I love being at home, in my room.
I need to mujahadah each time before I plan a visit.
I need to inspire myself with this hadis in order for me to drop by at people's house.

Abu Hurairah narrated that the Prophet (pbuh) said:

“A man visited a brother of his in another village and Allah positioned an angel to wait for him on his way. When he came upon the angel, he asked him, ‘Where are you going? He answered: ‘I am going to visit a brother of mine in this village.’ The angel asked further: ‘Is there any favor that you want to get from him? The man said, ‘No, it is only that I love him for Allah’s sake.’ The angel then said: ‘I am a messenger of Allah to you (to tell you) that, Allah loves you as you love your brother for His sake.”

Ok, back to the discussion that I had with my friend.

She said to me, 'Saya rasa visit orang tu senang. I love doing it. But for you, it is something hard to do...and for me, I find it hard not to listen to music, because I love music. And for you it is easy, because you don't like bising-bising'

She added some more, 'Kalau orang yang memang tak suka berhias, senang lah diorang nak pakai jubah tudung labuh etc, sebab memang orang tu tak suka berhias. Tapi untuk orang yang suka berhias, of course it is a difficult thing to do'.

After a lil bit of thoughts, I answered her,

'I think that is where the challenges lie for each and everyone of us'.

Untuk orang yang suka muzik yang lagho-lagho, maka ujian dia di situ. Hence he/she needs to mujahadah to switch his/her interest into something which is more parallel with Islam.

Untuk orang yang tak suka go visiting, maka ujian dia di situ. Dia perlu bermujahadah untuk melawat orang at least when people are sick, or dead, or in hard times. Kalau pergi semata-mata nak menjenguk lagilah terpuji.

Untuk orang yang suka bertabarruj (well, perempuan memang sukakan kecantikan), maka ujiannya di situ. Kenalah bermujahadah untuk berhias setakat yang dibenarkan oleh Islam.

And IMHO, orang yang tak suka muzik or tak suka berhias tu pun bukan tak pernah terliur nak dengar muzik or nak berhias. But they restrain themselves.

I agree that I don't like bising-bising. But this morning I listened to Celine Dion's captivating voice and found it very tempting to the heart. So, kalau tak mujahadah, Allah might change my dislike into fondness. Mungkin dulu tak suka, tapi kalau selalu dengar, jadi sukalah.

I agree that I am not that fond in visiting people, but I always jihad to do it, and now it is not as hard as before for me to visit people, and I started to enjoy it :)

Mujahadah and a lil bit of islamic knowledge and awareness is the KEY!

Wallahua'lam :)

babysitting umar :)

2011-07-22T08:08:00.008+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I had the chance to babysit my 2-year old nephew,
Umar Iskandar-4 days in a row.
Bukannya the whole day, but during the night...
During the day, umar's babysitter will come and take care of him..
Why? because my sister is pregnant yang bila-bila masa boleh meletup and
my brother in law is away for a few days.

Changed his diapers, get his milk ready.
And the most CHALLENGING part is :
to tidurkan umar and to sleep.

The first night :
Umar was very tired...I took him to the beach and he got the chance to play in the playground..
So, no problem at all to make him sleep. But at 1 am-ish... he puked on the bedsheet. So, we had to get up and sort things up. Pastu tidur balik...oklah, not too bad.

The second night :
Tak ingat sangat...Tapi rasanya ada jugak umar bangun-bangun and makan ubat batuk and tukar pampers in the middle of the night.

The third night :
He was not sleepy at all. And I didn't know that he usually don't sleep with a blanket covering him... And on that particular night, he wants 'selimut'. So, I gave him selimut... And he kept tossing in and out of the blanket. Dah habis 1 bottle of milk pun, tak tidur lagi (-_-). I did not know what to do, can't sleep either. Kalau umar tak tidur, of course his nanny can't sleep either.

Told my sister that Umar was having trouble to sleep, and she told me to recite Al-Fatihah to umar. But Umar still can't sleep.

In the end I just laugh out loud.. It was so funny.. Seeing him getting into and out of the blanket over and over again... But Umar still didn't want to sleep. My sister came into the room and told me, umar have this problem with selimut; dia nak selimut, tapi bila selimut dia panas, dia keluar balik. Bila keluar dia nak selimut balik. It gets him a bit mixed up.

So I just grab the selimut and let his mother tidurkan him for a while...He cried but after a while, he fell asleep, alhamdulillah :)

The fourth night:
Sedikit suspend whether I would be able to put him to sleep around 11-ish because he had his day sleep for 3 hours!

He still wanted to play the selimut 'game'. And this time I didn't let it happen. I straight away put away the selimut, pujuk-pujuk him a bit, gave him his bottle of milk, dimmed the light and tepuk-tepuk his punggung until he fell asleep. And Alhamdulillah, berjaya! :D And we both slept well until 6.15 a.m.

..................................................................

I still remember what my sister told me : Bukan senang tidur dengan budak, macam tak tidur lah. Malam ni muntah, esok mengigau. Huhu.

Seeing how my brother and sisters took care of their children made me appreciate my parents more. Even though I am not the soft spoken type or the very rajin type of daughter, I do try and please my parents as much as I can by helping them here and there. May Allah accept everything from me and from my family.

This is si ponceng umar iskandar, I love him to bits!

2011-07-21T04:06:00.002+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Ramadhan will be here soon....
In just 10 days, the blessed month that everyone
(the muslims and the mukminin)
has been waiting for is here.
For the munafiqun or the wrong doers,
ramadhan might be great for them if they want to repent.
But if they are still in their old state,
they might hate ramadhan because in this month,
you have to fast and tarawih etc.
Doing ibadat is never easy if we are full of sins.
So, I must try and purify my soul as much as I can starting from now, up until raya..
and even after raya until the next ramadhan the jihad must go on and on.
So that Allah will make it easy for me to do ibadat.

Solat itu sukar kecuali bagi orang yang khusyuk...
I want to be included in the golongan khusyuk...
Sungguh jauh rasanya...

Terengganu again.

2011-07-04T02:49:00.003+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and
the Most Merciful :)

I am now at home for at least 2 months.
Tunggu posting.
I can only put one choice in the posting form.
And I put Terengganu.

Some people ask me. Tak boring ke duduk Terengganu.
Dahla asal Terengganu, kahwin dengan orang Terengganu.
Posting pun nak balik Terengganu.

Hmm. Frankly speaking, boring jugak.
And rasa jugak nak duduk tempat lain.
And I really really really like Kedah.
(well, maybe next time, nak buat masters ke...
nak jadi lecturer ke...
boleh pindah negeri/negara lain)
For the time being,
I think Terengganu is the best place for me to be in.

It is time to be near our parents
after 6-7 years being away from home.
Plus, I'll be separated from hubby for another year.
At least, even if I am far from him,
I will still be near to my family.
And since we are not yet stable financially,
being in Terengganu means we don't have to worry
about renting a house yet.

So, I am praying day and night for Terengganu!
Please pray for me too :)

Nouman Ali Khan

2011-06-20T12:31:00.005+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

It seems that Nouman Ali Khan is a very famous figure in the da'wah world.

I've never listened to his talks..
I am very ketinggalan zaman. Sigh..

So, I am going to listen to one of his talks tonight.
...and I'm going to start with this one.
Because I get angry very easily when I am hungry.

Till then!

No more excuse.

2011-06-17T07:23:00.005+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and
the Most Merciful :)

This morning I went for a rehlah.
Rehlah means picnic
I glad I made it to the picnic.

Lots of AKHAWAT. The feeling of ukhuwwah!
Pengisian. Sharing.
and last but not least, GOOD FOOD :)

I've been giving excuses to myself for too long.
The main excuses are :

I don't know how to do dakwah in Malaysia.
I am not familiar with the waqi' (environment).
I am not familiar with the people.

My dakwah and tarbiah progress in Kedah was very slow.
Zero contribution except for going to usrah frequently and a few programmes.
I know I need more and I also know that I need to give more.
So, since I am in Terengganu now, even though just for two months.
I am going to give my best for da'wah insyaAllah. I don't want to be left out. My friends in dakwah are all going forward. Especially those who are in the U.K. Even my hubby is moving forward much much faster than me. I don't want myself to be wasted.
Belajar pasal dakwah banyak dah tapi tak amalkan, tak memberi pada orang.
Banyak beralasan. Sigh.
Mesti proaktif.
Takkan selamanya nak beralasan tak biasa dengan keadaan kat Malaysia.
No, no.

Of course I can do something.
There is definitely something that I can do.
Definitely. There must be something.
Yes, that's the spirit. Keep it going babeh! :D

InsyaAllah I'll be conducting my own usrah next week :)
And soon enough InsyaAllah I'll be attending an usrah too.
I need to feed my soul as well as the adik-adik's souls!
Allah, please help this creature of yours :)

P.S. I Love You

2011-06-16T12:01:00.005+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and
the Most Merciful :)

I don't know how some people appear motivated and determined
ALL THE TIME.
When I asked hubby, 'adake orang yang sepanjang masa kuat?'.
He told me 'takde...'
Me: Tapi kenapa ada orang yang nampak kuat je sepanjang masa???
Hubby: Itu maksudnya mereka menggagahkan diri, menguatkan diri.

I see.

I am feeling so weak inside.
So weak.
The signs are : Melambat-lambatkan solat and malas baca Quran.
And the fact that I gobbled on the book P.S. I Love You this morning
doesn't really help.
It left me feeling blue and yet excited.

I bought the book long ago and did not have the chance to properly read it.
I even thought that the book was no good and I wondered why people were making such a
big fuss out of it.
And since I decided to advertise it on www.beli-buku-ku.blogspot.com,
I must re-read it.

And the book turned out to be awesome!
It had been quite some time since I last fell in love with an English novel.
The last time was last year when I was reading The Kite Runner.

Genres like 'the shopaholic' don't really appeal to me - coz the first shopaholic book that I read (shopaholic abroad) was really awful. I despise it after reading a few pages; let alone to finish it.
Later only that I knew from a friend that that particular book is the worst among all the series.
What say you? ;)

Ok, back to P.S. I Love You.
I love love it. I love every single sentence in the book.
And I decided not to sell it.
It is my current favourite book :)

It makes me appreciate my hubby and my marriage more than ever.
The book is not just about the bond between husband and wife but also between mother and daughter, brother and sister, between best friends, between employer and employee

A perfect book I must say
at least until I find something better :D

If you haven't read it, you must must must grab a hold of it and read it at leisure.
Don't rush in reading it.
Peace (^^)V

P.S. I love You Jimmy

my new blog!

2011-06-16T00:58:00.005+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the
Most Merciful :)

I was not in the pinkest of health for the past few days.
Coughing, sneezing, sore throat.

I got so bored of being bed-ridden
and I made a drastic decision to sell my books.
I wonder what is the link between
being sick, being bored with
a sudden temptation to sell things.
Huhu.

I even set up a blog to sell them :D

www.beli-buku-ku.blogspot.com

Among the books :

I got nothing to loose :) I simply want to try the online market here in Malaysia. Instead of being the buyer, this time I want to become the seller. Everyone seems to be selling something. I don't want to be left out :D It might be a bit difficult to sell books in Malaysia where the average number of books that Malaysians read is half a book per year. Not even a book per year! sigh...

So, start reading now! If you were to buy my books,
harga insyaAllah bisa dirunding :D

I am also selling some of my unused clothes in the near future.

touch-ups

2011-06-08T05:47:00.008+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and
the Most Merciful :)

Do you notice that the blog had gone through some renovations and touch-ups?
It's just some changes that blogspot permits me to do. Like changing the background, changing the fonts and colours. I am not that IT-literate to put sophisticated things using html or to make my own wonderful blog concept. I'll learn insyaAllah :)

I'm bored of being too girlish. The previous background was indeed too girlish.
Even my blog address now appears too girlish to my eyes. anis-girl? Huhu.
Gone were the girlish days. But I am too lazy to even bother changing my blog address again. It used to be abdullah-umarr (too boyish? the name was suppose to be my son's name) - and then I changed it to something too girlish. Sigh. My preferences change every now and then.

Told ya. Pantai lagikan berubah inikan pula manusia.

Anyways, I was not blogging frequently
for the past 10-12 months.
Sometimes I myself didn't even check
my own blog for about 1 week.
However I still saw people visiting this blog
even though the frequency was like
4-5 visits per day.
And once I've stopped writing frequently, the ideas just don't flow like before.
And now I'm trying to write again, my blog readers inspire me! One of my blog readers linked my blog under the category *inspiring writers*. And one of my good friends texted me this morning, thanking me for the reminders that I wrote. Thanks to her and to my friend, I am now very much inspired and hopefully I'll be inspiring others too.

I was too busy adapting to my new life. My new separa-adult life. I don't consider myself as a real adult until: career wise > I'm done with my KPLI and until I've started working and earning my own cold hard cash; family wise > until I get my own babies :) So, I am still in my transition phase and transition mood...I am working pretty soon and I might have baby bump anytime from now, so I'm becoming a real grown-up soon enough.

Ok back to blogging.

I only read a few blogs. Very few.
And among the few blogs that I read, I only become a fan to only 2-3 blogs.
So I try to identify what are the strong points of these gifted bloggers.

1. They are witty.
2. They write frequently.
3. The fonts are big enough. Not too small.
4. They put pictures in their every entry.
5. They write on a variety of topics.
You can not guess what he or she is writing in their next entry.
6. The list goes on, but I'm stopping at number 5.

I am very sleepy now. I boarded a bus from Jitra to KT last night, arrived at 5.
The interview went well Alhamdulillah. And I am feeling a bit feverish.

May Allah bless us all, always.

dasar tinggal dasar

2011-06-06T10:42:00.003+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

In my previous post(earlier today), I told you that I was really struggling to start my reading.
But Alhamdulillah, now I've been reading about our education system for the past 6-7 hours.

Quite interesting, all the dasar-dasar. My hubby came up with the conclusion that all the dasars are good, but the pelaksanaan isn't usually parallel with what had been planned. Dasar tinggal dasar sahaja. It is the same with the education system. I've been learning about student-centred strategy for about 1 year, had even been given the chance to practice it for about 2 months.

But I'm sure when reality kicks in, we won't be able to apply all the good strategies in our classrooms. Why? Exam-oriented education system still prevails. Tak payahlah nak implement any student-centred strategies selagi tak buang exam-oriented system. Teachers are humans. Students are also humans. They can't adapt to two contradicting systems at the same time. If you want student centred strategies, then, exam oriented system must go.

Student centred means students are to take an active part in the learning process. Teachers function only as facilitators; to guide and to facilitate. Student centred approach is totally an opposite teachnique from teacher centred approach. In teacher centred approach, a teacher always takes the limelight in a classroom with students listening and watching.

But how do you let the students become active learners when you have an endless list of things to be covered in the syllabus-for the students to face exams. It is common sense, in contra to preaching and lecturing by teachers, active participation by the students means MORE TIME required. If by lecturing stuffs to students you might only need 2 weeks to finish a chapter, letting them to discover stuffs through active learning will drag the lessons to at least 4 weeks.

Whatever it is, I think the experts in the ministry of education are already in their way to change the education system especially the pelaksanaan part. Which is why we are being trained to carry out the student-centred approach a.k.a constructivism in the classroom.

I'll definitely try my best insyaAllah.

no one can lie :(

2011-06-06T03:13:00.007+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I'm supposed to be reading. about issues. current issues on our education system. coz tommorrow I'll be having an interview.

But I am not.

I was blog hopping. eating. blog hopping again. eating again. and now I myself am blogging. I used to detest the idea of blog hopping; what a waste of time. But yeah, pantai lagikan berubah inikan pula hati manusia. Ujian comes and goes. I know that the cure to all my procrastination symptoms is to plan ; to create a to-be-done list for the day. But I could feel that the whole regime of syaitonirrojim is here; so that I continue to procrastinate. How awful. My own weak inner self plus a whole band of syaitan to restrain me from doing what I should be doing. Awful.

But could we actually blame syaitan when we are being questioned about all of our misconducts in the hereafter? There is a big court there you know. Allah's court. I don't think we can. We can't even hire lawyers. And we can't even speak. The tongue can't talk. The body will do the talking. Because the tongue will lie. They are known to be liars. Lawyers are also known to be liars. Well, not all of them and not all the time. But they must know to putarbelit things in order to save someone or oneself.

*Gambar hiasan - I believe that being tried in a courtroom is the last thing that we want to go through in this life*

In Allah's court, no one can lie. Not a single person can lie. Coz Allah is the Most Seeing and the Most Knowing. And to make it even fairer, Allah has the book of record of everyone's conducts. Walhal tak perlu pun buku tu kalau Allah nak punish us. Allah has the utmost right to punish us even without any trial (perbicaraan); we are afterall His creations. Just to give you an analogy, if you create a swan origamy. It is up to you whether you want to keep it or throw it. The origamy does not have any right to any trial.

But Allah is the Most Nice and the Most Just. So, He will conduct a trial for all of us. He has promised us that. Are you ready? Are we ready? I'm certainly not :(

Let us renew our promise every single day. Better still, every single hour.

"Sesungguhnya solatku, aktivitiku, hidupku, matiku...semuanya kerana Allah"

wallahua'lam

Of Orcs and Uruk Hai

2011-06-03T06:25:00.008+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I was a bit busy, Alhamdulillah.

Bila lapang puji Allah, bila sibuk pun puji Allah :D

Bila susah puji Allah, bila senang pun puji Allah :D

I guess everyone had at least watched Lord of the Rings once. A few days ago, I watched the movie with hubby, my first time watching with him; watched it a couple of times before.
It is indeed my favourite action movie; bearing in mind not to get my aqidah mixed up when watching the movie. There is no such thing such as the dark lord or wizards who are very powerful. Allah is the Greatest, the one and only God.

I don't think I'm that good at describing things. So, I am not gonna explain the movie. I'll straight away give my reflection after watching the movie.

I told myself, and I told hubby as well. Dekat neraka nanti, it would be far far worse from the Mountain of Doom and from the Dark Lord and from the Orcs. Kalau kita rasa Orcs tu dah teruk, kalau kita rasa the idea of Orcs and Uruk Hai ruling the world is bad enough, think again. Dekat neraka is much more teruk. Makan darah, nanah. Kena kurung dalam tempat yang sempit dan sesak, not to mention kena panggang dalam api sepanjang masa. Ada malaikat penjaga yang bengis. Tak payah tunggu dalam neraka, dekat dalam kubur pun dah teruk :(((

-one of the Uruk Hais-

And I was also very amazed by the determination of everyone who are on the good side in defending and fighting against evilness. Senang cerita, they are willing to sacrifice everything to ensure that peace prevails. What about us Muslims?

I really hope that one day the Muslim World is able to produce a movie as good as this to portray about Sultan Fateh, Sultan Salehuddin Al-Ayyubi. InsyaAllah.

There is this one good movie about Israeli attack on Flotilla by the Turkish; Valley of the Wolves: Palestine. I'll watch it soon and share my comments on it here. InsyaAllah.

Till then! :)

The shortcut to the happiest place :)

2011-05-06T01:25:00.005+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Life is a struggle. Accept it.

Nothing comes easily in life. Accept it.

Hungry? You must go and cook / buy food.

Money? You must work to earn it.

Degree? You must be determined enough to be granted with it.

Babies? You must push hard enough to get it
(Not to mention the 9 months of pregnancy).

Relationships? You must put in efforts to maintain it.

etc etc etc.

But...all of our struggles will turn out to be nothing if we don't get one thing clear right from the start. Apa yang membuatkan kita struggle? If it is simply to fulfill our needs and wants - rugilah. But if the motivation behind all the hard works is to achieve mardhotillah, then two thumbs up for us :)

Yesterday I asked my soon-to-be-doctor azmi(say ameen) to describe to me about Jannah. I love to hear about Jannah. I love all the descriptions. I don't mind listening about Jannah over and over again - even though the descriptions is almost always the same. Ye lah, Jannah kan takde orang pernah rasa or lihat. And the nikmats there is unimaginable by us. What we know about it, is just what Allah tells us in His Kalamullah.

Ok back to my hubby's answer. He kept repeating about takde susah, takde marah, takde letih dalam syurga. SELAMA-LAMANYA.

I told him - hey you keep repeating about 'selama-lamanya'. I know about that, so ceritalah benda-benda lain pulak. Kan ada banyak cerita dalam Quran pasal syurga. And he told me that the fact that kalau kita boleh masuk syurga, we will be there selama-lamanya, that is the best thing about syurga. Which was why he kept repeating the point :p

Bestnya kalau boleh masuk syurga!
The short cut to Jannah is to die as a martyr (mati syaheed/syuhada').

How are we going to die as a martyr kalau kita masih ada banyak penyakit cinta dunia and takut mati? I don't know. But I pray to Allah that when the time comes, He'll take me and hubby as one of His syuhada'. Who knows right, If Allah wills it, tetiba je perasaan cinta dunia boleh disappear right.

We both need Mardhotillah dear Allah, Ameen.

Madame Tussauds and Disneyland

2011-05-03T07:00:00.006+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

When I was studying abroad, I had never been to Madame Tussauds (did I spell it right?huhu) and Disneyland.

Madame Tussauds tak pernah terliur langsung nak pergi. Tapi Disneyland ada jugak terliur, tapi so far berjaya lagi tahan, alhamdulillah.

Maybe because my mother used to be very strict about anak-anak patung. Up until now she still shows her dislike if we have anak patung in our rooms (exception to kanak-kanak). So, I am quite used to not having teddybears / rabbits in my bedroom. If I were to buy anak patung, I have to carefully choose something like stars or smileys or something yang tak cukup sifat.

I personally feel that the act of creating patung-patung lilin of artists is not parallel to Islam. The dalil? I am not very sure.

Disneyland - I read/heard somewhere that it is owned by the Israels. Plus, funfairs tend to distract us from remembering Allah. Ada ke orang happy-happy, makan cotton candy, salam-salam dengan mickey mouse nak ingat Allah sangat... I don't know... If I were there, I might not remember Allah too much.

Some people gave me a very surprised look when I told them that I've never been to these two attractions. I did not give them a thorough explanation, and I simply said that I think that it is membazir to go to those places.

Well...in my humble opinion, memang membazir pun. Why should I spend my precious money to see patung lilin and mickey mouse? Sedangkan every single cent that we spend will be questioned by Allah on judgement Day.

For example, Madame Tussauds ticket price:

Ticket	On the day price	Online price from	Saving %
Adult	£28.80
Child	£24.60
Family	£99.00

*Apparently my hubby had also never been to Madame Tussauds and Disneyland. We are both glad that we were able to restrain ourselves (dengan izin Allah) from going to both places simply to please Allah.

I hope I won't get a chance ever to go to these two places, because I don't want to be like the pepatah 'menjilat ludah sendiri'; which means membuat sesuatu yang kita pernah cakap kita tak suke buat. The point of writing this entire post is to inspire others to do the same or to at least give some thoughts before visiting any place in the world. Make sure that we plan our holiday so that it is parallel to Islam.

On a different note, I wish I wish I wish that I will be able to perform umrah and Haji before I leave the world. Ameen.

yankus time

2011-04-29T00:56:00.005+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Yesterday I was feeling quite low -iman wise/dari sudut keimanan-.

I told my other half, 'hubby, saya tahu iman itu yazid wa yankus (naik dan turun), tapi cemane kalau mati masa keadaan iman tengah yankus?'.

'We can't help having yankus time rite?'

I was very worried.

I even woke up in the middle of the night and gave some thoughts about death. I am definitely not ready for death. But if you ask anyone on earth, no one would say that they are completely ready. Unless if you are going for jihad or anything similar.

Hubby told me something that I had never heard before. He said that, even though iman turun, tak mungkin dia turun lower than 100%. Sebab orang yang beriman, mesti mempuyai keimanan 100%. Kalau iman dia bukan 100%, in the first place, dia bukanlah seorang yang fully beriman. So 100% is the threshold...Kalau naik, maybe dia jadi 150% and kalau turun maybe dia jadi 100% balik.

I don't know if that explanation makes any sense to you.

But to me, it did :)

I think Mutabaah amal is very important in keeping our iman high. However, I do have this problem, once I've skipped ticking for one day, I find it difficult to continue my mutabaah amal again. And in the end I'll skipped a few days or even weeks before resuming the action again.

*Mutabaah amal is a form where you tick the amalan sunat that you've done in a day. For example have you read the mathurat, have you carried out qiammullail, have you read the Quran and the list goes on*

Life is indeed a struggle.

the best investment for your children :)

2011-03-30T10:22:00.009+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I am reading Nota Hati Seorang Lelaki by Pahrol Mohd. Juoi.
A compilation of short true stories.

Among the things that I've got by reading this book is that
one of the best gifts that a father could present to his children is:
an unconditional love towards their mother.

How true.
Once the mother is happy, a house will transform into a home.
I guess everyone has heard of this :
You can buy a house but not a home.
It requires love and happiness
for a house to become home sweet home.
Once the mother is happy, everyone will be happy.
As simple as that.

Once the mother is happy, the house will be the best place to be in.
Once the mother is happy, the children gets full attention and care.
And the list goes on and on.
So, to every father out there, make the mother happy :)
It is the best investment that you could make for your children.

p/s: here is the book

Qalbun salim

2011-03-28T13:39:00.003+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Pada suatu zaman dahulu Nabi s.a.w pernah memberi jaminan bahawa seorang lelaki yang kita tak ketahui namanya akan menjadi penghuni syurga. Nabi s.a.w beberapa kali memberitahu para sahabat bahawa lelaki ini akan menjadi penghuni syurga.

Jadi para sahabat pun tertanya-tanya apakah kehebatan lelaki ini. Sehinggakan seorang sahabat pergi menumpang di rumah lelaki ini selama 3 hari dengan alasan beliau mempunyai masalah di rumahnya. Bila disiasat, rupanya lelaki ini tiada amalan istimewa. Lalu, sahabat Nabi ini menceritakan kisah sebenar bahawa Nabi s.a.w telah menyatakan bahawa lelaki ini adalah seorang ahli syurga, jadi beliau menumpang di rumah lelaki ini hanya semata-mata ingin mengetahui amalan istimewa lelaki ini. Lelaki ini tidak tahu apakah keistimewaannya, dan setelah beliau berfikir selama beberapa ketika, beliau teringat bahawa setiap kali sebelum tidur, beliau akan memaafkan semua orang.

Itulah keistimewaan lelaki ini! Hati yang bersih! Qalbun salim! Hati yang sejahtera.

Hati yang bersih adalah amalan yang terbaik. Jauh lebih baik daripada segala amalan zahir.

Kita selalu berhadapan dengan perasaan tidak puas hati, perasaan dengki, perasaan marah. Semoga kita sentiasa memaafkan dan beristighfar dengan kelemahan diri.

Berapa banyak orang yang luarannya nampak baik namun mulut dan hati tidak pernah berhenti mencemuh, memandang rendah orang lain, membuka keaiban orang? Tentu ramai sekali. Termasuklah diri ini, tidak pernah terlepas daripada hati yang kotor. Nauzubillahi min zalik.

Wallahua'lam

2011-03-18T08:29:00.003Z

Ya Allah,

Jauhkan kami dari sifat malas dan lemah ya Allah
Bebaskan kami dari segala kebodohan ya Allah
Kurniakan kami semangat belajar ya Allah,
semangat menuntut ilmu ya Allah.
Jangan biarkan satu hari pun berlalu tanpa ilmu ya Allah

I am feeling a bit sick of doing assignments and work.
But I know, to gain a degree/certificate needs a lot of effort.
Golongan terdahulu berjalan jauh meninggalkan rumah
semata-mata untuk mencari sepotong hadis.
So, I too should not whine/give up.

Wallahua'lam

Green buildings

2011-03-16T03:15:00.009Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Alhamdulillah this is my 400th post :)

Thank You Allah for lending this blog to me so that I can express myself when I feel like it.
Thank You Allah, because through this blog I can remind myself and those around me.
Thank You Allah, for giving me passion in writing and for giving me time and ideas to write.

I aint sure how many people read this blog. But even if it is just 10 people, Alhamdulillah, that is more than enough. If I write a book and sell it, I could not be certain that I would even have 10 buyers. So thank you my readers, you are my guest :)

It is now raining in Kuala Terengganu, and I am sitting at my study table, trying to complete my assignment for the module 'environmental education'. As much as I am a teacher I am also a struggling student :)

I am free to choose on whatever environmental issue and my work is to produce an essay about that particular issue. And in the end I choose to write about 'green building'. My lecturer seems to be very passionate about green buildings but that is not the main reason why I take up this issue. If I were to follow my interest, I would rather write on 'recycling'. I always find the issue on 'recycling' close at heart and that we must all try to be in it together :) However, I couldn't find many academic literatures on it. Maybe the issue on recycling is a bit outdated if compared to 'green building'.

Anyways, I've been surfing about Green buildings on the internet and I find the topic quite amusing. People around the world are now aware about the importance of sustaining energy and other natural resources such as water and they are implementing their awareness on buildings. I don't know how to define green buildings in simple words.

So here is the simplest definition that I could find from http://www.buildgreen.co.nz/definition.html :

A green building is an environmentally sustainable building, designed, constructed and operated to minimise the total environmental impacts.

The main strategies to achieve a green building include:

reduced energy consumption
water conservation
recycling waste

Well designed green buildings will save money, increase comfort and create healthier environments for people to live and work, using improved indoor air quality, natural daylight, and thermal comfort.

Taipei 101 - The world's tallest green building

Taipei 101, famous for being one of the world’s tallest buildings, is set to get some major eco-upgrades in an effort to save money, reduce its impact, and gain the much coveted title of “World’s Tallest Green Building.” In 2007, the Burj Dubai surpassed Taipei 101 in terms of height, but the Taiwanese building won’t give up the fight, throwing down $1.8 million in energy efficiency upgrades, which are expected to yield $20 million annually in savings and make it the Earth’s greenest building that’s also closest to the heavens!

Harace Lin, Chairman of the Taipei Financial Center Corporation, said on Monday, “As the world’s tallest [completed] building, Taipei 101 aims to raise people’s awareness about our environment and be a pioneer of international green building certification for existing buildings.” Besides upgrades to the major energy systems used inside the building for heating, cooling and ventilation, the landscape will be altered to be more eco-friendly, lighting will be upgraded, and food in the restaurants will be more efficiently used to avoid waste. This improvements add to some of the buildings current eco-systems like low-e glass, waste recycling, a gray water system and building energy management.

Water Cube Beijing - The Beijing National Aquatics Centre

The "Water Cube" was built in accordance with a water-saving design concept to be a gigantic green architectural wonder.

The venue's membrane structure, covered by ETFE (Ethylene Tetrafluoroethylene) air cushions, is not only the first of its kind in China and the world's largest and most complex ETFE project, but it is also an economical and water-saving creation.

The blue-colored "hubble-bubble" material is much lighter than conventional glazing structures with the same lighting effect. So the cost of its supporting steel structure was reduced considerably, said Zheng Fang, the top designer of the Chinese-side design company.

In addition, the "Water Cube" was designed with water-saving and environmental protection efforts. According to statistics, the outer surface and roof facade can "collect" 10,000 tons of rain water, 70,000 tons of clean water and 60,000 tons of swimming pool water annually. And the venue can also save 140,000 tons of recycled water a year.

I now find the topic very interesting and amusing. Go green buildings!

What can WE do in going green?

Kita kan khalifah dekat atas muka bumi ini. Maka, setelah tangan-tangan kita ini melakukan kerosakan pada muka bumi...we should try our best untuk memulihkan balik those damages.

Switch off the lights setiap kali kita nak keluar bilik.
Tutup suis semua benda sebelum tidur. Standby mode pun consume banyak energy.
Don't let the tap water running while you're brushing your teeth. Kalau kita membazir air, nanti air tak cukup, bila air tak cukup kena bukak empangan lain, kena clear kan hutan lagi. Kalau kita berjimat, insyaAllah cukup.
Recycle.
etc etc etc. Banyak lagi cara nak go green. Boleh google :)

We have to bear in mind that the earth is already tersangat tua. So we have to do our best in conserving all the available resources.

*I really hope to finish this assignment A.S.A.P. *

till then!

senarai kesyukuran updated

2011-03-14T08:05:00.009Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Maka yang mana satu di antara nikmat-nikmat Tuhan kamu,
yang kamu hendak dustakan?
Then which of the Blessings of your Lord will you both (jinn and men) deny?
[Ar-Rahman : 15]

Update senarai kesyukuran :)

Saya pernah membuat satu senarai kesyukuran pada 15 November 2008. Lebih 2 tahun yang lepas. I still remember that I used to be a very active blogger with ideas flowing non-stoppingly :D

Well. That was history. Regardless of whether I am a blogger yang tegar or not, I am grateful for whatever that I am/have NOW.

Senarai kesyukuran saya yang terdahulu sangat panjang. Ada 81 item kesemuanya. This time, I'll just update 10 things that I am most grateful for in life :)

1. I am grateful that I am now happily married to my one and only Mr.Hubby.
2. I am grateful that I am a practising Muslim and I pray that I'll be a better hamba in every way as time passes by.
3. I am grateful that I have such loving parents and siblings who never fails to support me. I am grateful for all my good friends - you guys know who you are :)
4. I am grateful that I am doing something that I am passionate with to earn my living. I teach school children.
5. I am grateful that I have enough money to eat, to maintain a car, to pay my house rent and utility bills, to support my study and to buy clothes.
6. I am grateful that I have such an understanding and supportive partner for my teacher training course. Having her on my side cuts all the troubles into half.
7. I am grateful that Allah bless my family with 5 little ones and another 2 coming soon. The eldest is 9 and the youngest is 5 months (expected due date : August).
8. I am grateful for my eyes, my ears, my mouth, my teeth, my nose, my heart, my kidneys, my hands, my feet, my skin and the list goes on and on. Thank you Allah for all my pancaindera :)
9. I am grateful that I am healthy. I can walk, I can eat, I can sleep, I can work, I can drive.
10. I am grateful that Allah has been lending me a good life for the past 23 years.

The list goes on. But for now, I'll just stop at number 10.

Thank you Allah. You are the owner of every single thing. When the time comes everything will return back to You. Guide me and my hubby in our every action dear Allah. Guide my family and friends as well. Ameen.

2011-03-13T05:16:00.003Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I was chatting with my good friend during school days...and we were talking about our careers... and she suddenly told me that I once told her this "jadi cikgu ni adalah kerja yang sangat noble".

And I ended up becoming a teacher :)

She felt happy for me. I also feel the same way for myself. Alhamdulillah.

I still remember when I had to choose between doing medicine and doing Biology, my mum told me this : "takpe, jadi cikgu ni jadi doktor jugak sebenarnya. Doktor minda".

Yeah. I could not agree more. Being a teacher, you can express your thoughts and ideas to so many minds. You can instill values to so many hearts. And if your hobby is 'talking', teaching is a great profession for you. Cause there are so many pairs of ears waiting eagerly for you to talk.

2011-03-11T12:09:00.002Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful.

People don't want to die. But indeed, in the end everyone will die. Everyone must die. There is another world, an eternal world where we are all going to be resurrected and remain alive there eternally.

My sister once told me that : "kakak bukan takut mati, tapi takut sebab tak cukup persiapan untuk mati".

Yeah, I kinda agree with her... Mati tu tetap mati. It is just a process. A painful process. Kalau kita baik and diredhai oleh Allah insyaAllah oklah. Tapi siapa boleh jamin yang Allah dah redha akan dia? Which is why hidup kita yang selepas mati tu yang amat menakutkan. Sebab kita tak cukup bekal. Kita tak cukup buat amalan sunat. Kita boros. Kita kuat mengumpat. Kita solat tak sempurna. Kita tak menghayati Quran. Kita tak tutup aurat. Kita suka dengki dengan orang. Kita suka busuk hati. etc etc etc.

People are dying everyday everywhere. We might be next in line. The latest tragedy is Tsunami in Japan. Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi roji'un.

Sometimes rasa malu jugak dekat Allah, bila ada berita-berita macam ni, baru manusia ingat Allah. But then oklah, maksudnya hati kita masih hidup. Tapi kalau ada berita-berita macam ni pun kita masih lagi alpa, itu maksudnya hati kita sangat sakitlah.

Wallahua'lam.

2011-03-11T06:04:00.006Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I am excited about going to a kenduri kahwin tomorrow :) Ianya bukan kenduri kahwin saudara mara saya mahupun kawan-kawan saya. And yet I am excited. Hehe. So whose wedding is it?? Anak guru pembimbing saya dekat SMKAK kahwin. And I am excited because this is the first time that I am going for a wedding with my hubby as an adult .Kiranya bukan pegi ikut mama or ikut kakak. Hehe. Kalau ikut mama of course lah saya macam anak-anak lagi. Tapi kalau pergi sendiri dengan hubby, I'll act like a proper lady insyaAllah!

Yesterday, hubby and I had been married for 8 months. How time flies :D And just like any other married couples, our love for each other grows every single day... Thank you Allah... Thank you so much for every single blessings that You've bestowed upon us. Please lend hubby to me for a longer time so that we can grow old together dearest Allah...Ameen.

I am always worried sick about my hubby's safety because he is a motorbike rider. Yelah, kalau accidents dalam news...almost always involve motorbike riders... But then, there is nothing that we could do at this moment other than pray and pray and pray... We couldn't afford another car and siapa kata naik kereta sure tak accident. Right? I'll just cherish every moment that we have and kuatkan tawakal...Dear Allah, please take care of hubby...

I am not reading much nowadays...jadi...susah nak tulis anything yang ilmiah here...plus...I have very limited time...plus...I am not good at organising my time and I sleep too much when I am tired... And I am always tired during school days...

Till then...

Anis-girl :)

2011-03-01T11:10:00.002Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I am a normal sleeper. Is there such a word? Never mind. Saya adalah seorang penidur yang normal. I need my 8-hours of sleep or else I'll become tired and cranky during the day. I don't know if I will be able to cure this sleeping habit of mine. Before I started going for my practical ,people had been telling us this : you will only be able to sleep for about 2-3 hours per day.

Hehe.

Not for me.

Saya bukanlah seorang yang mampu stay up. Even during my SPM days, my A level days, I rarely stayed up. Maybe dua bulan sekali. But as far as I can remember, sangat-sangat rare lah untuk saya stay up.

But then, I have so many plans to be carried out. I want to do this and that. I want to improve myself here and there. I plan to change the world and yet I sleep. How irony is that.

I believe many people face the same problem. You want to change your life, and to a certain extent you want to change the world around you. And yet, again, the problem is that you sleep too much. You rest too much.

It is almost impossible for me to achieve everything that I want unless I reduce my sleeping time to just 5 hours per day? Takpun, I must be very efficient in organising myself so that I manage to spend all the hours when I am awake WISELY. Only then I can sleep normally and achieve things.

Till then :)

I miss u hubby. And everyone else at home and in Cardiff.

2011-02-28T11:13:00.003Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Today is not a very good day in the sense that I had my 'stomach ache' and had to find somewhere to sleep at the school + my hubby went back to Penang,+ I had to wake up early to finish up writing my lesson plan.

Other than that today is absolutely another fine day, alhamdulillah :) I am not sick, I have money, I have my shelter, my hubby is safe and sound in Penang, I have my mother who is just a phone call away, I have a very helpful and understanding partner for my teacher training course etc etc etc. Thank you Allah... I could never thank You enough for all the things that You've bestowed upon me.

I am trying to control my eating, because I'm getting chubbier :D orang kata lepas kahwin berat cepat naik sebab senang hati. Indeed I am senang hati, alhamdulillah :) but the increase in my body weight is causing me not to be so senang hati anymore. I HAVE TO CONTROL MY DIET.

I try to cut my sugar intake by ordering plain water/ ais kosong whenever I eat out. I am also cutting my carbohydrate intake by cutting my rice portion into half. Makan sayur banyak-banyak. Makan ulam juga. Eat pisang. Avoid gula-gula/chocolates. I've bought a bottle of madu, insyaAllah akan makan soon. Madu adalah makanan yang terbaik according to Islam.

Life without hubby around is quite empty because I miss my other half all the time. But it is ok. I believe many married couples experience the same thing. Allah bersama orang yang sabar.

Earn

2011-02-24T23:34:00.003Z

I think I've lost touch with my blog. I can't seem to write nemore :D

I've started my practical at SMKAK. The joy of teaching and giving is certainly indescribable.

Every time I teach, I will try and remember this. The students whom I am facing right now is the ultimate reason for me being able to further my studies in the UK. That is why, even when I am at any class for relief(guru ganti), if I don't have any work that has to be completed urgently, I will try and do something with the students. I feel that they have the right over all my knowledge and experiences.

The same thing goes to the doctors (Hubby, take note ;D), the patients that you have to face with all different kind of illness is the reason for you being able to further your studies up till now. The patients have the right over all your skills and expertise.

So why do many of us become selfish in the end? Why don't we give the best to people when in fact, they are the ones who pay our salaries. Every profession that we hold, it is certainly a big Amanah from Allah. Because we are paid for it. So stop complaining about every single thing. You want money right, SO EARN IT. Everything that we want in life and in the hereafter, WE MUST EARN IT. If we want a degree, we must earn it. If we want a partner, we must earn it. If we want food, we must earn it. Nothing comes easily. And certainly, if you want Jannah/Paradise/Syurga, you must try your very best in earning it, just like the companions of the prophets.

Earn equals to
1) obtaining (money) in return for labour or services.
2) gain deservedly in return for one's behaviour or achievements.

Saya takdelah nak kata saya ni workaholic sangat or diligent sangat. Tak pun. Biasa-biasa je.
But when I am with the students, and when I plan my lessons, I try and give my very best.

Anis :)

2011-01-21T03:08:00.004Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

From my observations, saya selalu nampak pemimpin-pemimpin di Malaysia membaca teks bila berucap. Dan saya rasa perbuatan itu adalah sedikit awkward. I think a leader should give out his/her own speech dengan penuh perasaan, bukannya membaca teks yang orang lain buatkan. Saya fahamlah orang besar-besar ni tak cukup masa nak buat skrip sendiri, tapi, in my humble point of view, better bagi a short and simple speech yang kita buat sendiri rather than baca speech yang panjang tapi orang lain buatkan. 'Speech time' is a very good time to deliver noble messages, so why don't leaders use it to advice people and to educate people. Even if it is just a speech for perasmian. Not everyone is gifted with public speaking skill, but then kalau kita dah jadik prominent leaders, kena belajar lah benda tu.

p/s: MC takpe baca script ;) leaders yang kena improve untuk kurangkan pembacaan script dan perbanyakkan personal touch dalam speech masing-masing.

2011-01-01T12:51:00.003Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Kalau balik Terengganu mesti nampak masalah makanan tak habis. Macam satu kerja pulak nak habiskan makanan. Mama kata orang Malaysia ni bukan masalah makanan tak cukup, tapi masalah nak habiskan makanan. Except for special cases : orang-orang yang terlampau susah yang nak cari sesuap nasi pun payah :(

Balik ke Jitra ni pun still berlarutan masalah nak habiskan makanan. I bought 3 ringgit of kuih sebagai bekal untuk perjalanan pulang from KT to Kedah. And tu pun tak habis sampai kena try makan lagi hari ni. I also brought back some pisang lemak manis from home, and tu pun nak kena berusaha habiskan! And I bought roti and sekaya yesterday. And roti tu expiry date dia hari selasa ni, and tak bukak pun lagi!

Subhanallah. Banyaknya rezeki dalam bentuk makanan yang Allah kurniakan. I suddenly remember that Rasulullah s.a.w selalu je takde makanan. Kalau takde makanan, Rasulullah puasa je. Food was not a big issue in his household. Makan apa yang ada, kalau tak ada, puasa. As simple as that. Rasulullah and para sahabah banyak lagi agenda lain untuk difikirkan, bukan macam kita yang siang malam asyik berfikir apa lagi nak makan, asyik berfikir 'laparnya, lepas ni nak makan ape'.

Lemahnya generasi kita ini, iman senipis kulit bawang. Banyakkan berpuasa. Semoga kita tahan ujian lapar dan semoga iman bertambah dan bertambah lagi, ameen :)

'Muslim yang kuat itu lebih disukai Allah berbanding Muslim yang lemah'.

Wallahua'lam.

:)

2010-12-31T13:55:00.004Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Alhamdulillah, bilik dah kemas dan siap untuk diduduki for another two months, insyaAllah :)

Regardless of anything that will happen during the next few months of KPLI, I should always be thankful that I have a very nice room to live in, here in Jitra. Bilik ni takdelah besar and takdelah dihias dengan cantik. But it is comfortable enough and cosy enough for me during the weekdays and for me and hubby during the weekends.

Alhamdulillah, dah cuba untuk menyusun semua barang di bilik ini dengan sebaik mungkin. Bilik yang kemas tersusun amat penting dalam memudahkan urusan kehidupan kita. Hidup lebih mudah dan kita akan rasa lebih bersemangat. Cuba bayang kalau bilik bersepah, semua urusan tergendala, sebab masa kita terhabis untuk mencari barang je. Lagipun Allah sukakan kecantikan dan kebersihan :)

The challenge is to keep this room in order despite my busyness nanti. Kalau saya berdisiplin, insyaAllah tak susah. Lepas makan, basuh cepat-cepat. Buat laundry dengan frequent. Sapu bilik dengan frequent. Buang sampah dengan frequent. Susun buku-buku dengan frequent. Letak benda dekat tempat dia (there is a place for everything, and everything must be in place). Jangan banyak berfacebook supaya ada banyak masa untuk mengemas dan mengurus diri. Cuti baru ni saya rasa aman sikit hidup and lebih fokus untuk siapkan homework sebab saya deactivate facebook. Facebook bagus untuk berkomunikasi, but then dia adalah the main source of distraction and escapism. Tak bagus kalau kita tak pandai mengawal diri. And hakikatnya ramai orang gagal mengawal diri. In the end, potensi-potensi diri terbunuh begitu saja, kerana banyak masa dihabiskan untuk perkara-perkara sia-sia di facebook. Nauzubillah.

Selamat tahun baru 2011. Ada apa dengan tahun baru, kalau diri sendiri gagal berubah? Demi masa, sesungguhnya manusia dalam kerugian. Jom berazam bersungguh-sungguh untuk betul-betul cuba menjaga masa setiap hari. Supaya apabila kita dipanggil untuk balik kepada Pencipta kita, kita dalam keadaan produktif untuk diri, keluarga, agama dan ummah. Ameen.

2010-12-31T04:55:00.005Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful...

Dan di antara tanda-tanda yang membuktikan
kekuasaannya dan rahmatNya,
bahawa Ia menciptakan untuk kamu (wahai kaum lelaki),
isteri-isteri dari jenis kamu sendiri,
supaya kamu bersenang hati dan hidup mesra dengannya,
dan dijadikanNya di antara kamu (suami isteri)
perasaan kasih sayang dan belas kasihan.
Sesungguhnya yang demikian itu
mengandungi keterangan-keterangan
(yang menimbulkan kesedaran)
bagi orang-orang yang berfikir.
[Ar-Rum : 21]

14 wonderful days with hubby. The longest duration spent together so far.

He went back to Penang just now, he needs to attend a mukhayyam(camping) with his rakan-rakan usrah. I tried not to cry but I failed. And it makes me ponder, betapa benarnya ayat-ayat Allah di atas. Thank you Allah for everything.

Allah menciptakan kasih sayang dan belas kasihan di antara suami isteri. And the feeling is far far more wonderful when we marry someone for the sake of his religion. And if I could exaggerate some more, lagi best bila tak bercinta before kahwin :) sebab semua benda pun belum tahu, semua benda pun baru nak discover. And keberkatan lebih terasa. Sebab kita tahu kita kahwin based on what and for what and we get those things right, from the start. No offence to anyone, simply nak encourage people to do what is right :)

Wallahua'lam

Take care hubby, Jazakallahu khair for every single thing. May Allah reward you for every kindness that you've showered upon me. Semoga bertemu lagi di dunia dan juga di syurga, ameen :)

2010-12-27T04:55:00.004Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Tidak ada sesuatu kesusahan (atau bala bencana)
yang ditimpakan di bumi,
dan tidak juga yang menimpa diri kamu,
melainkan telah sedia ada di dalam Kitab (pengetahuan Kami)
sebelum Kami menjadikannya;
sesungguhnya mengadakan yang demikian itu
adalah mudah bagi Allah.

(Kamu diberitahu tentang itu) supaya
kamu tidak bersedih hati
akan apa yang telah luput daripada kamu,
dan tidak pula bergembira (secara sombong dan bangga)
dengan apa yang diberikan kepada kamu.
Dan (ingatlah), Allah tidak suka
kepada tiap-tiap orang yang sombong takbur,
lagi membanggakan diri.
[Surah Al-Hadid : 22-23]

Setiap hari pasti berlaku perkara-perkara yang menjengkelkan kita,mengecewakan kita, melemahkan semangat kita, menaikkan rasa marah kita. Tapi saban hari juga, pasti berlaku perkara yang menggembirakan, menenangkan, membuat hati berbunga girang :)

Kerana: Hidup ini adalah ujian.

Dan ayat Quran di atas patut membuatkan kita tenang despite setiap kesusahan mahupun kegembiraan. Kalau susah pun, jangan stress out sangat. Takut-takut nanti kita tidak menjadi orang yang bersyukur. And kalau senang pun, jangan terlampau excited sangat. Takut-takut nanti kita menjadi orang yang sombong. Nauzubillah.

Saya selalu sangat berfikir, KENAPALAH SUSAH SANGAT NAK JADI BAIK... KENAPALAH SUSAH SANGAT NAK JADI SEORANG YANG MENJAGA MASA... KENAPALAH SUSAH SANGAT NAK LAWAN KEMALASAN DAN MENJALANI HIDUP YANG BERSISTEM...

Dan sekarang ni, saya dah realise... memang bukan senang nak jadi seorang yang baik dalam semua sudut, memang bukan senang nak jadi orang yang bersistem, memang bukan senang untuk jadi seorang yang hebat dalam menjaga masa.

Allah tak bagi benda yang bernilai dengan mudah pada kita. Nak dapatkan iman, nak dapatkan sabar, nak dapatkan kehidupan yang bersistem. Semuanya memerlukan kepada kesungguhan dan usaha berterusan. Hatta nak habiskan Quran pun kalau kita tak bersungguh, mungkin kita takkan tamat setahun sekali. Nampak mudah je perbuatan membaca Quran, tapi kalau tak bersungguh, tak istiqomah, kita takkan dapat habiskan.

Jadi, kita harus berhenti berangan. Semua azam kita yang kita dah simpan sejak bertahun-tahun lamanya. Semuanya takkan tercapai tanpa kesungguhan dan sistem. Semudah-mudah sistem adalah sistem 'to-do list', and yet sistem ni pun kita tak dapat nak buat dengan konsisten kalau kita tak bersungguh.

Dah berjuta dah kata motivasi daripada Quran mahupun daripada barat. Tapi motivasi hanya akan kekal sebagai motivasi, selagi kita tak bersungguh. Bacalah 4 juta buku motivasi pun, kalau kita taknak take action, takkan berhasil jugak.

And paling penting, jangan cepat berputus asa. Mungkin kita dah take action untuk berubah, dah take action untuk cuba menjaga masa. Tapi sebagai manusia, akan sentiasa ada waktu up dan waktu down. Iman kita pun bersifat yazid wa yankus meaning selalu naik turun. So, kalau cuba sekali dua, pastu lemah balik, never never ever give in. Nak dapat benda bagus kena berusaha lama. Bukan sekali dua, bukan sehari dua. Nabi s.a.w berusaha sebarkan dakwah, bukan sekali dua cubaan saja, bahkan berkali-kali tanpa henti. Mus'ab bin Umayr yang ditugaskan berdakwah di Madinah sebelum hijrah, telah mengetuk semua pintu rumah yang ada untuk menyampaikan dakwah,bukan cukup dengan lima enam buah rumah sahaja.

Kita pun kena camtu. Saya yakin semua orang banyak azam-azam yang tertunda sebab kurangnya kesungguhan. Salah satu azam saya yang masih tak tertunai-tunai adalah nak hafaz juz amma. Tak cukup dengan buat hafazan 2, 3 kali setahun. Mesti berterusan. Kalau terhenti pun, kena sambung balik. Kalau gagal, cuba lagi. Gagal, cuba lagi.

InsyaAllah, niat yang baik, diiringi dengan kesungguhan, moga-moga dimudahkan Allah.
"verily with every difficulty, there is ease"

Wallahua'lam :)

2010-12-07T12:59:00.004Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Sebulan tak update blog. Takpelah :D

I'm at home alhamdulillah, after all the hurdles in Jitra. I must admit that I hate being far away from home. I hate being in Jitra. I don't hate Jitra. But I hate being so so so far away from home when I am in Malaysia, plus I don't have any relative in Jitra or in Alor Setar. My nearest relative is in Sungai Petani, which is about one and half an hour drive away. But being in Jitra means I am nearer to my hubby. since hubby is in Penang. Being in K. Terengganu means I am very very far away from my Hubby. Ah well, that's life. You win some & you certainly loose some.

I don't know if I hate KPLI or not. It is a love-hate relationship. I don't think KPLI is that bad after all because it gives me LOADS of new knowledge and experiences. And I love love the lecturers there. And my classmates are nice secara overall. But, I am still not quite sure yet whether I like KPLI or not. Everyone in my class seems to hate KPLI and it is indeed contagious. When everyone hates something it seems not quite right not to hate it as well. Urgh, I don't know.

I still have 23 days left to be at home. Hubby will be back in 8 days time. I still have lots of schoolwork to be done. I managed to stay awake this morning after subuh and I also managed to listen to 'Tanyalah Ustaz' with alert eyes and attentive ears. Alhamdulillah. 23 days is A LOT, you know. I hope that by the end of this school holiday I won't have that distasteful regretful feeling; the feeling where you feel that you haven't done much & that you didn't use your holidays wisely. I DON'T WANT that feeling, please...

A few goals for this 23 days : I hope to finish up my schoolworks before hubby comes back. I hope to finish up my ganti puasa. I hope to khatam Quran ( I still have 9 juz left). I hope to finish up reading a total of 6 books ( I've read nearly 3 books. So another 3 to go ). I hope to constantly eat multivitamin everyday. I hope not to skip ma'thurat on any day. I hope to print out photos of my trips to Turkey, Sweden, Ireland, Egypt, U.K and have them beautifully laid out in beautiful albums. I hope to renew my driving license before hubby comes back. I hope that I can start saving money, even as little as RM100 per months. I hope to be well-versed at biology form 4 topics since I will be doing my practical real soon. I hope I'll be able to have loads of classroom activities ready for Practical. I hope to improve in my arabic lessons and to have at least 50 new arabic vocabs. I hope to memorise at least 2 surahs. I hope that I can constantly write in my life journal. I hope that I will be able to use Mama's time-managing system. I hope I will be more soft-spoken and have a more delightful face :) I wish I wish I wish.

Anyway, here is a tongue-twister for you :
I wish to wish the wish you wish to wish. But if you wish the wish to the witch wishes. I won't wish the wish you wish to wish

Selamat mencuba tongue twister. Kena baca dengan laju tanpa melihat :)

Tata!
anis-girl :)

2010-11-08T14:05:00.003Z

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Alhamdulillah dah bergelar Leftenan Muda KRS selepas camping pentauliahan baru- baru ini. Sesungguhnya kejayaan itu tidak tiba dengan mudah. Selepas dah menguasai semua jenis ikatan asas dan juga kawad kaki asas barulah kami layak ditauliahkan. The same process can be applied to everything in life. Semua perkara memerlukan usaha. Samalah jugak proses untuk menjadi guru. Semestinya tidak mudah.

Jitra baru sahaja selepas dilanda banjir yang teruk. Hujan turun dengan non-stoppingly selama dua hari. Masa tu, kami berada di tapak perkhemahan. Hujan yang turun menyebabkan perkhemahan kami agak santai, sebab kami tak perlu tidur di khemah disebabkan khemah yang dipenuhi air, kami juga tak perlu menjalani latihan kawad yang intensif disebabkan cuaca buruk. Banyak masa kami dihabiskan di dewan sahaja. Tapi satu pengalaman yang tak dapat dilupakan adalah kami terpaksa berbasikal dalam keadaan hujan lebat sejauh 25 km :) huhu. Rasanya perkara ini tak pernah dibuat orang. Siap ada polis trafik escort pulak tu. Kami berbasikal daripada IPDA (Institut Perguruan Darulaman) ke Gua Kerbau di Kodiang dalam keadaan HUJAN LEBAT. 25km. Jauh!

Saya rasa jurulatih-jurulatih kami sangat baik dan mesra pelajar. Kadang-kadang saya rasa cikgu yang uruskan perkhemahan dan aktiviti ko-ku lagi rapat dengan pelajar berbanding cikgu-cikgu yang mengajar dalam kelas. Maybe sebab cikgu-cikgu ko-ku banyak beraktiviti dengan pelajar sedangkan cikgu-cikgu subjek akademik sangat limited masanya dengan pelajar, sekadar di kelas.

Banyak buah fikiran dan pengalaman yang ingin dikongsikan tapi mata dah mengantuk. InsyaAllah esok lusa saya tulis lagi :)

Akhir kata, saya dan hubby sangat mengimpikan syurga di mana ahlinya sibuk dengan kerehatan. Boleh bayangkan tak, sibuk dengan berehat? Mesti super duper best. Jom bersedekah, berpuasa, bersolat sunat, berzikir dan segala bentuk kebaikan lagi. Tambahan pula dah masuk hari pertama zulhijah. The best time of the year untuk menjadi baik, insyaAllah.

Loves, Anis :)

2010-10-29T05:40:00.002+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

This morning we had a mini volleyball tournament. Huhu. Very active, huh? Semalam petang baru lepas treasure hunt, pagi ni dah main volley pulak. Oklah, not badlah. Service asyik tak melepasi net je. But then berjayalah sambut bola sekali dua. Walaupun kami semua takdelah a very big fan of KPLI, satu perkara baik yang saya dapat perhatikan adalah, kami berpeluang mencuba pelbagai aktiviti. Kerana kami telah DIWAJIBKAN. By hook or by crook, kena organise ini kena organise itu. Kena main ini, kena main itu. Kalau zaman sekolah dulu, kita jarang -jarang je cuba sebab takde orang nak paksa kita.

Semalam masa usrah, makcik kata, sekolah-sekolah sekarang ni, semua nak tekankan straight A's. Straight A's tu seolah-olah zikir utama dekat semua sekolah. Baguslah. Tak salah pun. Tapi makcik bagi tahu students dia 'saya tak bangga sikit pun kalau kamu dapat straight A's tapi perangai hodoh'. Akhlak hodoh atau perangai hodoh, kita sendiri boleh definelah. Mungkin pergaulan sosial adalah salah satu contoh akhlak yang tak cantik, mungkin mendedahkan aurat satu bentuk keruntuhan akhlak, mungkin jugak sikap suka ketawa kuat atau menjerit-jerit satu keburukan. Tepuk dada, tanya iman. Saya pun selalu melakukan kesilapan-kesilapan yang saya sebut, secara sedar mahupun tak sedar. Sama-sama kita muhasabah =S

Pastu makcik cerita dia pergi satu sekolah ni dekat Changlun, Kedah. Pastu dia tanya berapa orang yang solat tak cukup 5 kali sehari. Hampir semua students angkat tangan.

Kadang-kadang saya tertanya-tanya apakah yang dimaksudkan dengan keamanan dan keharmonian negara kita yang sering diwar-warkan. Ok, maybe yang dimaksudkan adalah kita jarang ada pertumpahan darah dan demo jalanan dan kebanyakan orang cukup makan dan pakai. Tapi, rasa-rasa saya, gejala sosial dan kadar jenayah teramatlah tinggi dekat negara kita ni. Kadar accidents pun tinggi. Jadi, saya tak tahu negara kita ni aman ke tak sebenarnya. Mungkin aman dari sudut makanan dan pakaian. Tapi tak aman dari sudut jenayah dan gejala sosial. Gejala sosial ni kan, kalau negara bukan islam kita takdelah nak hairan sangat and takdelah nak kisah sangat. Tapi since kita ni orang Islam, and negara kita ni majoriti penduduknya adalah islam dan agama rasminya adalah islam, kita kenalah ponder, sebab apa teruk sangat keadaan sekarang ni. Kenalah buat something jugak. Bukan setakat buat something, kena buat many many things. InsyaAllah.

Till then! Hasbunallah wani'mal wakeel, ni'mal maula wa ni'man naseer.

2010-10-28T12:16:00.004+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Alhamdulillah, I thank Allah for every single thing.

Last night, I did my macroteaching session. It could have been far better but it could also have been worse. Takpelah, this macroteaching thing is part of my learning process in becoming a teacher. So, I won't be too hard on myself, despite my poor performance last night. I forgot to do a few things and I was quite nervous I guess.

Semua perkara ada hikmah kan :)

This afternoon, all of us participated in a treasure hunt competition organised by our own persatuan sains. Best :) Saya rasa rakan-rakan saya yang telah merancang treasure hunt tersebut tersangatlah kreatif. I really enjoyed the activities and games at all the checkpoints.

Tonight I am going for usrah. Hubby is also going for his usrah. Usrah, usrah, usrah. Ada apa dengan usrah? Macam-macam ada dalam usrah. Tapi the one that I am going to highlight in this entry is that : istiqamah dengan usrah adalah cara kita membuktikan pada diri and most importantly pada Allah, bahawa kita sanggup mengorbankan masa dan tenaga untuk belajar tentang agama dan juga untuk membawa agama kepada orang lain. Semoga Allah mencatat setiap langkah kita sebagai amalan kebaikan. Istiqamah dengan usrah adalah antara langkah asas dalam dakwah. Bukankah Nabi dan para Sahabat juga sangat mementingkan majlis-majlis ilmu?

Saya berdoa agar saya, keluarga dan kawan-kawan akan sentiasa berusaha mencari ilmu dan juga membaiki diri seterusnya menyumbang kepada ummah sepanjang masa, ameen.

Say no to futurness.

Futur = lesu, lemah dan terhenti daripada aktiviti dakwah dan tarbiah.

Selamat hari jumaat! ^.^

2010-10-26T07:52:00.002+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Minggu ini semua students KPLI-PPC Biologi sibuk dengan KKBI Macroteaching. KKBI stands for Kerja Kursus Berasaskan Ilmu. Macroteaching pulak maksudnya kita menggunakan teknik-teknik microteaching untuk pengajaran selama 40 minit. Microteaching tu pulak ape ye? Microteaching tu bermaksud teknik-teknik mengajar such as : Questioning technique, Set induction, explaining technique, stimulus variation technique, reinforcement technique, closure technique, teaching and learning aids technique. Contohnya, dalam questioning technique, seorang guru mesti pandai melontarkan soalan, melayan jawapan, melantulkan soalan etc etc. PELBAGAI JENIS TEKNIK telah diajar kepada kami bagi memastikan pengajaran yang menarik, mantap lagi berkesan.

InsyaAllah malam esok akan tiba giliran saya untuk menjalankan macroteaching saya di mana topik yang saya akan sampaikan adalah berkaitan dengan internal stimuli. Kalau kita semua masih ingat, kita ada kan belajar pasal homeostasis waktu sekolah dulu, so, saya akan sampaikan the general idea pasal homeostasis which is the pathway yang consists of stimulus, receptor, integrating centre, effector, negative feedback, respond and normal condition. Kami semua bertungkus lumus memikirkan cara yang terbaik untuk menyampaikan pengajaran kami supaya pelajar tidak bosan dan dapat melibatkan diri dengan semaksimum mungkin. Teknik ini dipanggil 'constructivism' a.k.a 'student-centred learning'. Teknik ini bertentangan dengan cara chalk and talk yang telah diamalkan semenjak berkurun-kurun lamanya di semua sekolah.

Malangnya bila berdepan dengan realiti sebenar, seorang guru tak sempat pun nak apply semua teknik-teknik menarik ni, kerana terlampau disibukkan dengan kerja luar bilik darjah dan juga kerja-kerja mengejar silibus. Akibatnya students pun kebosanan dan tertidur.

Minggu depan ada perkhemahan pentauliahan leftenan muda KRS. Fuiyo...
Kawad pun tak berapa nak betul lagi ni, dah nak ditauliahkan. So far, semua orang yang pergi perkhemahan akan dapat pentauliahan. Hopefully saya pun samalah.

During the KRS camping, we've got to undergo a few assessments such as : memberikan hukuman kawad(arahan kawad statik, arahan paraskan skuad, arahan masuk baris), beberapa pergerakan kawad (hormat selaku terima sijil, hormat ke hadapan hormat, tukar langkah semasa berjalan, pusing ke belakang sewaktu berjalan), buat ikatan tali-temali, buat bantu mula (first aid).

Kalau berjaya semua-semua tu baru dapat gelaran 'Leftenan Muda KRS'. InsyaAllah :)

Ok, penning off from Inapan Adora, Taman Siswa 2, Jitra.

Alhamdulillah for every single thing, Dear Allah :)

2010-10-24T12:58:00.004+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

The time has come again for me to post a new entry, insyaAllah.

Life is good Alhamdulillah and I praise Allah s.w.t for every single thing.

The workload is there but it could have been worse. So, I should just be thankful and try my very best to carry out the work.

Hubby gave me a book : Denyut Kasih Medik. I requested for him to try and find the book before our wedding reception quite some time ago, but he couldn't find it. The reason was that I wanted to include the book as one of my hantaran. But since he didn't manage to find it, I forgot about the book for a while. And last friday, he brought it back for me :) I've started reading a few pages, and masyaAllah it is a very very good book.Kehidupan seorang doktor yang cuba mengamalkan gaya hidup yang islamik. Dahla front cover cantik :)

*Very highly recommended*
Jazakallahu khair hubby. May Allah reward you with good things in this life and in the hereafter.

Weekend baru ni, seperti kebiasaannya saya akan mengemas-ngemas bilik. Pastu saya pun terfikir 'napelah bilik ni asyik sepah je. kemas-kemas, sepah balik. kemas-kemas, kecah balik'. Pastu saya pun terfikir, sebab saya masih lagi bernafas dan hidup, sebab itulah bilik ni sepah. Kalau saya dah tak bernyawa, for sure bilik saya akan kemas cantik tersusun je sepanjang masa. Astaghfirullah, jadi sekarang ni kalau saya kena kemas bilik, saya dah tak rasa jengkel dah, sebabnya, saya masih lagi dikurniakan nikmat kehidupan dan kesihatan, alhamdulillah :)

Pastu saya pun dah start usrah balik dengan seorang makcik yang bernama Makcik Lela. Alhamdulillah lagi. Kehidupan tanpa usrah agak terumbang-ambing. Memang kita boleh buat segala amal ibadat secara bersendirian, tapi dakwah dan tarbiah mempunyai penangannya yang tersendiri, sangat sangat special bagi yang pernah merasai.

Pastu lagi, haritu saya call mama. She said to me, kalau nak bahagia, tak lain dan tak bukan, kena banyak baca al-Quran. And saya tambah : kena baca Quran dan kena buat apa yang kita kena buat. Baru bahagia. InsyaAllah :) Seorang manusia, untuk bahagia, tak dapat tidak, mesti berhubung baik dengan Allah dan juga mesti menyelesaikan segala tugasan yang terletak di bahu. Kalau kita jadi student, kita mesti baik dengan Allah dan juga mesti buat homework. Kalau kita baik dengan Allah, tapi kita tak siap homework, the restless feeling would be there.

Oklah. Till then. May Allah accept from me and from you, ameen

Anis :)

2010-09-30T15:43:00.004+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I just got back from a program called 'bina insan guru'. In short, camping lah.
OK lah. Not bad. Camp ni tak strict sangat, baguslah untuk orang-orang seperti saya yang not a big fan of outdoor activities (-_-)'

Semua orang bersungguh-sungguh dan mempunyai semangat kerjasama yang tinggi, maka in that sense,bestlah.
'what's the word? TEAMWORK!'
hehe. kalau ada teamwork,benda-benda tak best pun jadik best.

Last week banyak ujian-ujian kehidupan melanda. Printer saya bocor di saat saya perlu menyiapkan satu folio tebal. Pastu right after hantar folio, laptop saya pulak rosak and kena formatkan. Tapi iman itu memang perlu sentiasa diuji kan. Sebab kehidupan ini sendiri satu ujian. Allah kan dah kata, 'adakah kita sangka kita akan masuk syurga sedangkan kita belum diuji?'. Haa. So, tak payahlah terkejut sangat kalau diuji.

Hari ini saya dapat email from someone whom I hold very close at heart. Thank you for the email and thank you for making my life extra special by being in it!

I do feel that keeping in touch with good friends is one of the best flavours of life.

Oklah, that's all for now :)

p/s: satu lagi flavour hidup yang best adalah bila dapat berjumpa jimmy-hubby. hee. see ya esok hubby, insyaAllah!

2010-09-23T11:56:00.003+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Alhamdulillah, I am back in IPDA, Jitra. I have arrived safely here in one piece last saturday, thank You Allah. Please bestow Your mercy upon us, Your powerless servants.

Life has been very hectic. It is totally different from my previous chapter of life(my student life in the U.K). Ala kulli hal, I'm coping insyaAllah. Seek Allah and insyaAllah you'll find your way.

Some lecturers are very good at grabbing their students' attention and some are not. Well, on the bright side,at least there are teachers to teach us regardless of whether they are good at grabbing people's attention or not. I believe that deep in every teacher's heart, they would want to deliver their lessons in the best possible ways for their beloved students. Cumanya some teachers lebih kreatif, and some are not. Yang kurang kreatif tu, tak bermakna diorang tak baik. Maybe diorang takde pendedahan tentang kreativiti ke ape ke. Takpun memang suara derang memang monotonous ke. And I do feel bad whenever I fell asleep in their classes. (-_-)' ngantuk ah, can't help it. Tak berniat pun nak jadi anak murid yang biadap, tapi ngantuk sangat. TAPI, jangan lah imagine saya tidur yang betul-betul yang memang obvious tu. Mata saya je tertutup secara berkala.

Papepun, saya harap, saya akan menjadi guru yang pandai membuat kelas lively dan pandai menarik perhatian murid lah, ameen :)

Sekarang ni kitorang ada latihan olahraga dua hari berturut-turut dah. Surprisingly all of us enjoyed the lessons. Best ah olahraga kalau kita diajar steps yang betul. Tadi kitorang belajar lompat jauh. Saya tak pernah buat lompat jauh seumur hidup tau. Tapi tadi boleh buat, thanks to the teacher who is a very dedicated person.

Dari sudut kerohanian pula, alhamdulillah recovering. At least dah rasa online balik lah dengan Allah. Walaupun connection still weak lagi. InsyaAllah sedang berusaha. Rindu nak usrah. Rindu nak pegi program.

Oklah. That's all for now.

p/s: I miss you hubby. Everyday :)

2010-09-04T00:19:00.003+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I am almost always frustrated with my weak sides. As a human being, naturally I would have many shortcomings. In fact, most of the time, I will feel very inadequate to do dakwah and to do good things due to those shortcomings of mine.

Kalau baca buku motivasi orang putih, they have quite an easy solution. love yourself, don't be too hard on yourself and at the same time improve yourself. But it is very hard to love yourself, when you have several shortcomings that will cause you to commit dosa. Because as we all know, in Islam, you cant simply blame your kelemahan2 for your bad actions. Sebab in the end nanti, ada hari akhirat, where you need to justify all your actions. Why did you do this, why did you do that, why didn't you do this, why didn't you do that?

This frustrated feeling is very disastrous and damaging to the soul, if it is not quickly rectified. Sebab apa, sebab nanti you will be carried away by your feelings, and you stop doing your daily chores, stop doing good etc etc. Pastu later, you feel bad, and you distance yourself out from Allah etc etc.

It's a cycle.

Mula-mula, kita frust dengan diri, pastu kita down, pastu kita tak buat kerja2 yang kena buat, pastu kita jauh dengan Allah, pastu kita malu dengan Allah, pastu kita down lagi sebab kita jauh dengan Allah, pastu in the end kita lagilah frust.

Pernah tak dengar perkataan ni :

'Doing good makes you feel good'

I believe in that. So, setiap kali rasa down, or frustrated. Jangan layan. No matter how bad you are that day, stop thinking about it, and go and do something good. But first, istighfar and taubat lah kan :)

My hubby reminded me of this one hadis yang kata kalau kita buat dosa, kita kena ganti dengan sesuatu yang baik. Contohnya kita mengumpat orang, pastu kita menyesal, pastu kita mintak ampun, pastu kita pergilah buat kebaikan such as sedekah ke, baca quran ke. Mengumpat tu contoh paling senanglah, sebab semua orang ada tendency untuk termengumpat.

oklah. take care! selamat beramadhan! :)

2010-08-30T10:31:00.002+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Kebanyakan masanya, tak rasa layak pun nak tulis blog. Sebab diri sendiri pun tak kuat melawan nafsu, diri sendiri pun banyak kelemahan.

But I suppose, kelemahan diri tu memang ada pada diri semua orang. Bezanya ada orang mujahadahnya tinggi, ada orang mujahadahnya kurang sikit, ada orang tak bermujahadah langsung.

Lately ni saya asyik terdengar-dengar ceramah satu ustaz ni, walaupun saya lama dah tak dengar apa-apa recording, tapi suara ustaz ni terngiang-ngiang di fikiran saya.

Dia kata dekat akhirat nanti kita akan sangat menyesal, kita akan cakap 'tak sempat nak buat amal banyak-banyak kat dunia, tak sempat nak gunakan masa lapang, masa sihat untuk agama, tak sempat ni, tak sempat tu'. Tapi masa tu terlambat dah.

Oklah. Tu aje yang saya nak share hari ni. Selamat berbaik-baik dengan Allah dan selamat menjadi baik. Susahnya nak jadi baik dalam erti kata sebenar.

wassalam.

Teacher training

2010-08-21T00:04:00.004+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I am in Terengganu and will be here for a month. Two weeks of school-based experience ( observing how school administration staffs and teachers run a school from a teacher's point of view), plus two weeks of cuti raya. Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for being so understanding and for letting us be in our hometowns during this Ramadhan.

So far, I find life in IPDA(Institut Perguruan Darul Aman) quite interesting and very very tiring. Most of the lecturers there are very passionate about the subjects that they are teaching. I guess when you teach with passion, students will automatically give their fullest attentions to you. So, TIP number one : Be passionate.

Life there is very tiring because it is very hectic. Since we are late by about one month and a half from the usual KPLI intake, our timetable is very crammed. We have classes from 8 a.m to 5 p.m everyday with only one hour break(1 p.m to 2 p.m). But we all rather have it this way, short and cramped rather than having ample time but we have to stay longer in the teacher training.

We have to do PJ, olahraga, kokurikulum(permainan, unit beruniform, persatuan), ilmu pendidikan, macro and micro teaching, science curriculum, science process, KH(kemahiran hidup), Bahasa Melayu komunikasi, CAMPING, praktikum(going to school), Pendidikan Agama Islam, Pendidikan Negara Bangsa, Pengurusan ko-kurikulum. Ada berjuta folios kena buat. BANYAK TAK? dalam masa lebih kurang 7 bulan. Sebab walaupun kursus kitorang sepatutnya setahun, tapi kitorang dahla masuk sebulan setengah lambat pastu cuti-cuti bagai. cuti je dah dekat 3 bulan. Fuh. Allahumma Yasseer wala tu'asseer, Ya Allah mudahkanlah janganlah Engkau susahkan.

Have I told you that apart from Biology as my major subject, I also have a minor subject. And cuba teka subject minor kitorang ape.

KHB! Kemahiran Hidup Bersepadu!

My personal opinion is that KH is a very interesting subject when you are a student. But teaching it is a totally different matter. Sebab cikgu KH kena pandai semua benda-benda yang intricate tu. Menjahit, elektronik, memasak, bertukang, berkebun. Huahua...

Hopefully, kitorang mampu niatkan belajar semua-semua ni kerana Allah and hopefully kitorang selalu ingat Allah. So, that at least adalah jugak pahala. Sebab frankly speaking, KPLI sibuk sangat, nak ibadat extra pun tak sempat sangat. Malam-malam pun after tarawih dah flat dah. And knowing myself yang mmg kurang berstamina ni, lagilah limited masa. I think I'll have to find ways soon, nak bagi fit sikit. Nak jadi cikgu takleh jadik makcik yang selalu penat-penat tu dah. Dahla nak jadi Dai'e lagi. Kalau asyik penat je, cane nak belajar jadi cikgu lagi, nak spend masa berdakwah lagi. Allahu musta'an.

Hopefully lepas ni, saya dapat tulis reminders balik. Supaya saya dapat remind diri saya banyak-banyak sikit and at the same time, dapat jugak benefit siapa-siapa yang baca blog ni, insyaAllah.

Loves, Anis :)

p/s: Hubby, I know you'll be reading this soon, hopefully you'll have a productive weekend =D

ramadhan :)

2010-08-16T14:36:00.003+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

It's Ramadhan. I am a now a degree holder and more surprisingly, a wife =D.

My last entry was published on the 14th of May 2010, about 3 months back. Three very busy months. Daripada kesibukan exam, kesibukan post-exam, kesibukan balik mengejut(tak tunggu graduation day), kesibukan kahwin mengejut, kesibukan preparation nak masuk teacher training. Mujur tak mati dalam keadaan sibuk tersebut. Sebab sibuk-sibuk tu memang tak sempat nak bertafakur, bermuhasabah sangat.

Life is good, Alhamdulillah and I thank Allah for every single thing. Walaupun selalu je alpa dan terlupa, selalu je terbabas, terbuat dosa, I sincerely hope, from the bottom of my heart, that Allah will make it easy for me and my family to try and gain His forgiveness. Despite kelemahan yang berlambak-lambak, semoga Allah ampunkan kami, semoga Allah memberi kekuatan pada kami untuk menjadi hamba yang baik, hamba yang sentiasa sensitif dengan dosa, hamba yang sentiasa berusaha menjalankan amar ma'ruf dan nahi munkar.

That is all for now :) Sempena ramadhan yang super special ni, let us all try our very best to please Allah insyaAllah.

Loves, Anis =D

2010-05-14T21:23:00.004+01:00

Dari Hatim Al-Asom : “Terburu-buru itu termasuk sifat syaitan, kecuali pada lima tempat”,

maka ia termasuk sunnah Rasulullah SAW :

1) Memberi makan tetamu, bila ia datang berkunjung.

2) Menyiapkan perkuburan mayat bila telah mati.

3) Mengahwinkan anak perempuan, bila cukup umur.

4) Membayar hutang, bila telah sampai masanya.

5) Bertaubat dari dosa! , bila ia telah melakukannya

Jom bertaubat dari dosa dengan segera! dan melayan tetamu dengan baik :)

2010-05-11T18:24:00.007+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

I think I ought to share something here. Dah lama tak share apa-apa.

Harini saya nak share bukan ilmu, tapi nak share one very simple insight that my best friend gave me.

Some people are by nature very sensitive-hearted. Easily affected. Banyaklah faktor. Cara dibesarkan. Memang hard-wired dalam diri. Etc. Etc.

Kawan saya kata : 'Kita ni tak boleh sensitif sangat. Tak boleh hidup nanti'.

Saya rasa nasihat tu antara nasihat paling bagus yang saya pernah dengar seumur hidup ini. Mungkin kedengaran simple. Mungkin dah dengar banyak kali dari sumber lain tapi tak pernah berkesan. But at that moment, memang saya rasa terkesan sangat dengan kata-kata kawan saya tu. Saya rasa tersangatlah benar kata-kata dia tu. IT CHANGED MY LIFE. Kalau dulu, saya senang sensitif dengan mak saya, sebab anak bongsu kot. Ok, tak minat pun nak elaborate pasal tu. Just wanna say that, now ni setiap kali saya nak sensitif dengan mak saya, saya akan fikir nasihat kawan saya tu.

Yup, dengan manusia jangan sensitif sangat. Especially bila kita ini receiving end. Tak payah kisah sangat lah kalau orang kasar dengan kita, or orang kutuk kita, or orang salah cakap dengan kita. Nabi, kalau nak sensitif dengan tindakan manusia terhadap dia, memang tak boleh buat kerja lah. Dan juga jangan sensitif sangat dengan apa yang orang tak buat untuk kita. Most people sakit jiwa sebab asyik nampak apa yang orang tak buat untuk dia.

Tapi bila kita at the giving end, kena jadik sensitif. Setiap patah kata kita, kita kena fikir betul-betul. Setiap perbuatan kita pada orang kena fikir betul-betul. Mesti sensitif dengan perasaan orang dan kesusahan orang. Sebab saya tengok salah satu ciri Islam yang sangat cantik adalah, to avoid sufferings upon other people. To avoid doing bad things, harsh things to other people.

Dengan Tuhan paling penting untuk jadi sensitif. Sebab Allah itu Maha Halus. In order untuk jadi hamba yang baik kita pun kena sensitif dengan segala tindakan kita. Sensitif dengan dosa. Sensitif supaya kita tak mensyirikkan Dia, tak meragui takdir Dia, meninggalkan segala larangan Dia, cuba buat suruhan Dia. Hanya jiwa yang sensitif dengan Tuhan akan dapat melakukan segala benda tu.

I want to be both. Sensitive dan insensitive. Dua-dua pun diperlukan dalam hidup. Especially kalau nak jadi hamba yang berjaya.

Semoga bermanfaat :)

my sisters are my best friends

2010-05-05T18:45:00.007+01:00

Kakak will be going back for good to Malaysia tonight.

Sedih ah. Tak pernah exam takde kakak.

Before exam akan chat dengan kakak, mintak kakak doakan.

After exam akan terus cari kakak nak chat, nak cakap exam teruk ke, ok ke.

Kakak balik malaysia mesti sibuk.

Mesti tak sempat nak ingat adik exam bila.

Tapi takpelah, adik pun dah nak balik dah, insyaAllah :)

Lewat sikit je daripada kakak.

Nanti balik malaysia, jom jadi adik-beradik yang loving lagi :)

yang baik pada mama dan papa. yang baik pada kak chik, pada abang :)

Kalau satu family pun berbaik-baik, hopefully Allah akan sayang dan masukkan kita semua dalam syurga. Ameen.

One thing for sure, I will definitely miss my kakak's presence during exam nanti.

I love you kakak and thanks for always being there.

Penning off with tears.

p/s : kakak no. 2 jangan rasa adik lagi sayang kakak no.1. Adik sayang je dua-dua. Kalau kat terengganu, mestilah selalu nak kakchik jugak. I love you kakchik, thanks for always being there too :)

2010-04-27T23:37:00.003+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Dalam usrah haritu ,we talked about neraca apa yang digunapakai oleh manusia pada zaman muta'akhir ini. My friend said, ada yang menggunakan neraca kebendaan, neraca pangkat, neraca kecantikan. Ada juga segelintir yang berneracakan dakwah, dan akhirat. Neraca ini maksudnya pertimbangan kan. Kalau kebendaan menjadi neraca kita, maka apa saja yang akan membawa kebendaan pada kita, akan kita dahulukan.

Saya rasa, para sahabat dulu telah dilatih oleh Nabi untuk berneracakan 'syurga'. Apa saja yang akan melambatkan mereka ke syurga akan segera ditinggalkan. Apa saja yang mempercepatkan mereka ke syurga akan dikutip dan diusahakan bersungguh-sungguh. Kenapa ingin mati syahid?sebab utamanya adalah kerana dijamin syurga, TANPA HISAB :) Saya pernah dengar pendapat-pendapat bahawa, kalau kita buat pape, tak boleh sebab nakkan syurga. Mesti sebab Allah semata-mata.

Saya tak rasa salah pun kalau kita mengharapkan syurga, sebab Allah yang suruh kita mendambakan syurga, Nabi yang ajar kita supaya nakkan syurga. Allah yang ajar kita supaya selamatkan diri, supaya jauhkan diri dan keluarga daripada neraka. Nabi pun seru kita supaya mempercayai syurga dan neraka. Yelah, kalau kita nakkan syurga maknanya kita nak ikut apa yang Allah nak lah kan. Allah yang nak suruh kita masuk syurga. Allah buat syurga dan Allah design kehidupan manusia in such a way that syurga tu menjadi motivasi utama kita dalam beriman dan beramal.

Nak masuk syurga, kena jadi golongan gharib lah :)

Wallahua'lam

p/s : Saya ada satu kisah menarik pasal betapa para sahabat mengidamkan syurga dan akan cuba berbuat apa saja untuk mendapatkan syurga. In a different post insyaAllah.

bunuh tikus lagi

2010-04-26T23:02:00.005+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Semalam saya mimpi bunuh tikus lagi. Heh.

Pastu kawan saya kata 'kita ni, dalam mimpi je berani anis...'

Huhu. Quite true. Dalam mimpi pegang tikus sampai nak pengsan tikus tu. Dalam kehidupan sebenar, nampak tikus, lari lintang pukang.

Orang yang takde tikus dalam rumah takle nak faham kot, perasaan takut&tak best tu. Takpelah, tak lama dah. 3 bulan lagi, lepastu, bye bye melchisedec.

Jumaat lepas dah buat final year project presentation. Alhamdulillah, on my part, I think it went quite well. Experiment saya pasal fish personality kan, more specifically about bold&shy personality in guppies. Semua orang tahu kan, bold tu makna dia berani. Shy maksud dia pemalu, penakut sikit. Pastu saya kasik lah analogy, kalau dalam a group of students, ada some individuals yang 'bold', if you ask them to give presentations, they would be more than willing to do it. But then ada jugak individuals yang 'shy'. Bagi £100 pun belum tentu diorang nak buat. Pastu lecturer macam gelak sikit ah :) Pastu dia tanya 'so which one are you?'. Saya kata saya intermediate ^.^ tak bold tak shy. Samalah jugak macam dalam ikan. Ada yang bold=yang suka explore new surroundings, yang lead the shoal. Ikan yang shy pulak, tak berani keluar daripada kumpulan pun, apetah lagi nak explore kawasan sekitar sorang-sorang.

Nanti one day, saya cerita in full pasal experiment saya, insyaAllah.

Berita tentang keluarga sikit :

Sabtu lepas adalah birthday Qistina :) 9 tahun dah.

Cuya sayang nana BANYAK sangat.

My parents, my kakak, my abang are all in istanbul T_T

Saya... tak mampulah nak pergi...Lecture notes menimbun lagi.

Essay tak siap lagi.

May Allah bless their journey, ameen.

Ok. Tata :)

2010-04-25T23:41:00.003+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Saat bersujud, adakah hati turut sujud?

Pesan pada hati dan akal ye, setiap kali kepala dan badan bersujud, hati dan akal mesti turut sama. Nak menunjukkan kehambaan bukan setakat pada fizikal, paling-paling penting adalah hati. Hati yang bersifat hamba. Yang tiada ego, tiada sombong. Hati yang bersih dan sejahtera a.k.a Qalbun salim.

"Dan janganlah Engkau hinakan aku pada hari mereka dibangkitkan, (iaitu) pada hari harta dan anak-anak laki-laki tidak berguna, kecuali orang-orang yang menghadap Allah dengan hati yang bersih," (Al-Quran, Surah Asy Syu'araa [26]: 87-89)

Qalbun salim. Betapa pentingnya Qalbun salim. Penentu samada kita bakal masuk syurga ataupun tidak.

Mari tundukkan hati :)

2010-04-24T19:39:00.006+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Selalu kan rasa tak layak nak menerima terlalu banyak kurniaan Allah. Allah memberi kemudahan dan kesenangan di sana-sini. Rasa tak layak. Sebab terlalu banyak melakukan larangan Allah, dan terlampau banyak meninggalkan suruhan.

Tapi bila fikir-fikir balik. Allah bagi sesuatu dekat kita bukan sebab amalan kita. Tapi simply sebagai bukti sifat Ar-Rahman dan Ar-Rahim Allah. Bukan nak demotivate daripada beramal. Cuma nak kita get things right from the start. Beramal perlu. Tapi amalan tu just sebagai bukti kehambaan. Amal ibadat kita tak mampu buat apa-apa pun. Jadi jangan bergantung pada amalan. Beramal supaya Allah kasihankan kita. Bukan sebab kita rasa amalan kita ada kuasa menghantar kita ke syurga. Intricate isn't it?

Samalah macam orang yang berdialog dengan Allah pasal, dia nak masuk syurga sebab amalan dia ke sebab rahmat Allah. Dia kata sebab amalan dia. Cerita penuh as follows:

Muhammad bin Almunkadir dari Jabir r.a. berkata: "Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. keluar kepada kami dan bersabda: "Malaikat Jibril tadi datang kepadaku dan berkata: "Ya Muhammad, demi Allah yang mengutuskan mu sebagai nabi yang besar, sesungguhnya ada seorang hamba Allah yang beribadat selama lima ratus tahun diatas sebuah bukit yang lebar, panjangnya tiga puluh hasta kali tiga puluh hasta dan dikelilingi oleh laut seluas empat ribu farsakh dari tiap penjuru, disitu Allah s.w.t. mengeluarkan sumber air yang segar selebar satu jari dari bawah bukit, juga pohon delima pada tiap hari berbuah sebuah delima, maka bila siang hari turunlah orang itu untuk wuduk dan memetik delima, lalu dimakannya, kemudian berdiri sembahyang dan ia minta kepada Tuhan supaya dimatikan dalam sujud, dan supaya badannya tidak disentuh bumi atau lain-lainnya hingga bangkit dihari kiamat sambil sujud, maka Allah s.w.t. telah menerima permintaannya, kerana itu tiap kami naik turun dari langit selalu melaluinya ia sedang sujud. Jibril berkata: "Kami dapat dalam ilmu, bahawa ia akan dibangkitkan pada hari kiamat dan dihadapkan kepada Allah s.w.t. , lalu Allah s.w.t. menyuruh: "Masukkanlah hambaKu itu kedalam syurga dangan rahmatKu." Maka berkata orang itu: "Dengan amalku." Maka Allah s.w.t. menyuruh Malaikat supaya menghitung semua amalnya dan nikmatKu iaitu nikmat melihat (penglihatan), tiba-tiba nikmat penglihatan itu telah mengelilingi ibadatnya selama lima ratus tahun, sedang nikmat-nikmat Allah s.w.t. yang lain-lainnya belum. Maka Allah s.w.t. berfirman: "Masukkan ia kedalam neraka." dan ketika ditarik menuju keneraka, ia berkata: "Masukkanlah aku kedalam syurga dengan rahmatMu."

Maka Allah s.w.t. berfirman kepada Malaikat: "Kembalikanlah ia." Lalu ditanya oleh Allah s.w.t.: "Hambaku, siapa yang menjadikan kau daripada tidak ada?" Jawabnya: "Engkau Tuhan." Lalu dutanya: "Apakah itu kerana amalmu atau rahmatKu?" Jawabnya: "Dengan RahmatMu." Lalu ditanya: "Siapakah yang memberi kekuatan kepadamu untuk beribadat lima ratus tahun?" jawabnya: "Engkau Tuhanku." Lalu ditanya lagi: "Dan siapakah yang menempatkan kau diatas bukit dan ditengah laut dan mengeluarkan air segar yang tawar dari tengah-tengah laut yang masin getir dan menumbuhkan buah delima tiap pagi, padahal buah itu hanya berbuah satu tahun satu kali, lalu kau minta kepadaKu untuk mati sujud, siapakah yang berbuat itu semua?" Jawabnya: "Engkau Tuhanku." Firman Allah s.w.t. : "Maka semua itu dengan rahmatKu." Malaikat Jibril berkata: "Segala sesuatu terjadi dengan rahmat Allah s.w.t.."

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Sabda Nabi : ”Bukan amal seseorang yang memasukkannya ke syurga atau melepaskannya dari neraka, termasuk juga aku, tetapi ialah semata-mata rahmat Allah S.W.T belaka.” (Riwayat Muslim)

Allah maha bijaksana. Hikmahnya adalah supaya kita tak bergantung pada amalan. Berapa banyak orang yang taksub dengan amalan sendiri. Termasuklah iblis. Kita kalau boleh taknak ada hijab atau batu penghalang langsung dengan Allah. Kalau kita bergantung pada amalan, maka amalan kita tu akan membuatkan kita tak nampak Allah.

InsyaAllah, kita beramal sebagai salah satu usaha meraih rahmat Allah tapi bukan sebab kita nak bergantung pada amalan tersebut.

Wallahua'lam.

Astaghfirullah

2010-04-22T00:32:00.008+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Sebuah hadis yang jika dihayati akan membantu dan mendorong kita bersabar :) Seluruh kehidupan adalah ujian. Kadang-kadang out of nothingness dan tanpa disangka-sangka, ujian datang menjengah. Ujian biasanya datang untuk mengingatkan kita tentang kelemahan dan kekurangan diri dalam berbicara dan dalam beramal. Jom berusaha menahan kesakitan kesan daripada ujian. Jom berjuang untuk tidak dikalahkan oleh perasaan ^.^

"ABU Hurairah dan Said Al-Magburi meriwayatkan: Ada seseorang lelaki memarahi Saidina Abu Bakar. Ketika itu Rasulullah duduk di sebelahnya. Nabi diam saja, begitu juga Abu Bakar.

Selepas orang itu selesai memaki hamun dengan mengeluarkan kata-kata kesat, Abu Bakar membalas makian itu, tetapi Rasulullah bangun dan beredar dari situ. Abu Bakar hairan dan terus mengekori Nabi Muhammad sambil berkata: "Ya Rasulullah, dia memaki saya dan engkau pula diam. Ketika saya menjawab maki hamun itu, tiba-tiba engkau bangun lalu pergi."

Rasulullah lantas menjawab: "Sesungguhnya malaikat mengembalikan semua makian orang itu kepadanya ketika engkau diam, tetapi ketika engkau membalas makian itu, maka malaikat pergi dan syaitan pula masuk dan saya tidak suka duduk bersama syaitan."

Rasulullah kemudian bersabda lagi: "Allah akan memuliakan hamba-Nya ketika sedang dianiaya lalu memberikan kemaafan sambil mengharapkan keredaan Allah."

Abu Said al-Khurdi pula berkata: Rasulullah ada bersabda: "Awaslah kamu daripada sifat marah kerana marah itu menyalakan api dalam hati anak Adam.

"Maka sesiapa yang berasakan demikian ketika berdiri, hendaklah dia duduk dan jika dia duduk hendaklah ia berbaring."

Abu Hurairah al-Bahili berkata bahawa Rasulullah pernah bersabda: "Sesiapa yang pemarah tetapi dapat menahan marahnya dengan sabar, maka Allah akan mengisi hatinya dengan keredaan pada hari kiamat."

"Kesabaran adalah tunjang kekuatan dan kebahagiaan di dunia mahupun akhirat...."

wallahua'lam

2010-04-21T19:20:00.004+01:00

Saya rasa facebook tak best bila anak-anak main suka suki je letak gamba mak ayah... kadang-kadang mak tak pakai tudung. Kadang-kadang mak tengah hodoh. Kadang-kadang mak tengah sakit. Habis satu dunia tengok. Kesian mak.

Kalau saya ada anak nanti. Saya akan pantau facebook dia. Takdelah nak mengongkong. Tapi supervise je lah. Letak gambar mak tu satu hal lah. Lagi teruk letak gambar sendiri seksi-seksi, letak gambar bercinta-cinta. Mujur saya akan jadi generasi mak moden, yang tahu pasal dunia internet. Semoga Allah membantu.

=)

2010-04-19T18:56:00.008+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Alhamdulillah. A special Alhamdulillah.

Last night, my friend, Haifa came. I requested for her to come and help me, cause I planned of cooking some Malaysian food for my supervisor and a few of her PhD students.

THANK YOU HAIFA dearest ^.^

I cooked some fried noodles and spring rolls(popia lah kalau dalam bahasa malaysianya).

Hehe. Saya ni, kalau masak untuk orang putih, mesti masak mi goreng. Mi goreng ijun yang sedap tu. Tahlah, sebab kalau nak masak nasi, takut diorang tak berapa suka.

Ok, so I went to the office this afternoon. They enjoyed the meal, and finished up the fried noodle. They liked the popia very much too. Alhamdulillah. Mesti sedih kalau orang tak suka apa yang kita masak. Jadi kalau orang suka, kena bersyukur banyak-banyak. Boleh je kalau Allah nak buat masakan kita tu jadi tak sedap ke, masin ke, apeke. So, bukan kita lah yang pandai masak. Mesti ingat tu sentiasa.

We chatted for about 1 hour on topics such as 'what I will be doing when I go back to Malaysia', Am I really interested in teaching', 'will I go through arranged marriage', 'when is my exam dates', 'would I prefer a religious guy instead of a nice-but-not-so-religious guy', tips on presentation techniques etc etc etc. I enjoyed talking to them :) , because today the situation was very relaxed when I don't have to think about having to rush home and do my write up.

Pastu, I gave 4 cards to four different people today- two 'thank you' cards to Jo and Loys, and two goodluck cards to Wina and Miya. I love love love giving out cards to people. It makes me feel happy to know that people are gonna be excited when they receive pretty cards :) At least, most people will. Maybe ada je orang-orang yang special yang tak excited pun dengan cards, so, untuk orang-orang tersebut, kita boleh fikirkan hadiah lain. Bunga ke, chocolates ke, buku ke. There must be something for everyone :)

In the end, semua benda yang kita buat mesti sebab nak menyeru diri dan orang lain pada kebaikan :) That is what Islam is all about. Doing good, showing good examples, forbidding the evil & encouraging the good. InsyaAllah. May Allah accept from you and from me.

GM crops

2010-04-18T12:56:00.002+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Kalau kita refer kotak dekat sebelah kanan blog ini, antara ciri yang ingin dicapai adalah 'berpengetahuan luas' :)

Maka today, saya akan share a few facts and figures pasal 'GM crops'.

GM stands for genetically modified .

GM crops = genetically modified crops.

Instead of menanam pokok-pokok biasa, scientists akan cuba 'meddle' dengan genes supaya crop yang terhasil mempunyai ciri-ciri yang bagus-bagus semuanya. More like 'ideal' plants :)

Oleh kerana scientists dah designkan gene pokok tu supaya menjadi hampir ideal, pokok-pokok yang ideal ni biasanya ada ketahanan yang tinggi kepada serangga, kepada penyakit, kepada musim kemarau, kepada suhu, kepada air yang masin.

Bila pokok-pokok ni mampu melawan semua dugaan-dugaan di atas, biiznillah, maka, secara automatiknya hasil tuaian akan meningkat. Kalau selama ini, hasil tuaian hanyalah 50% disebabkan kehilangan/kematian pokok atas segala dugaan-dugaan yang disebutkan, maybe kalau menggunakan GM crops, hasil tuaian dapat meningkat kepada 80%.

Ok, apa contoh pokok-pokok? Pokok-pokok yang dipilih biasanya adalah 'crops' / tanaman makanan. Seperti : nasi, jagung, kacang soya, kentang, kapas.

Finally kita kena faham kenapa there is a need to introduce GM crops into the market. Sebenarnya, dalam dunia ni, ada banyakkkkk sangat orang yang malnourished. Perkara ini maybe tak dirasai sangat oleh negara-negara kaya dan tak ramai penduduk. Maybe orang di Malaysia dan U.K tak pernah pun terfikir pasal-pasal ada je kemungkinan makanan tak cukup suatu hari nanti. Sebab manusia makin ramai, global warming makin teruk.

Saya cite fakta sikit,

Referring to Pinstrup-Andersen et al (1999), in the developing world, 840 million people are chronically undernourished, surviving on fewer than 2000 calories per day.

Hmm, saya yakin antara bermilillion2 orang yang undernourished ni ramai adalah orang-orang dekat benua Africa yang mana penduduknya ramai muslim. Saudara kitalah.

Tapi, GM crops ni tentu sekali tak mudah untuk dilaksanakan. Yelah, meddling with God's creation. Yang mana kita tahu, apa yang Allah buat tu dah sangat baik. Kalau kita kacau-kacau akan ada effect yang kita mungkin tak dapat jangka. Banyaklah debate 'for and against' GM crops ni. Ada yang suka, ada yang tak.

Saya pun tak sure dari sudut islam, dibenarkan tak kita mengubah-ubah gene ni.

Sekian. Semoga ada manfaatnya :)

YES!

2010-04-17T21:32:00.005+01:00

To all girls, women, sisters, mothers :)

Yes to your beautiful smile that sends a message of warmth and friendliness to others
Yes to your kind words that establish friendship as permitted in Islam and dispel rancour
Yes to acceptable charity that brings happiness to the poor and feeds the hungry
Yes to sitting with the Qur'an , reciting it, pondering its meanings and acting upon them, and repenting and seeking forgiveness
Yes to remembering Allah a great deal and praying for forgiveness, persisting in du'a and offering sincere repentance
Yes to raising your children in Islam, teaching them the sunnah and guiding them to that which will benefit them
Yes to modesty and hijab as enjoined by Allah, which is the means of self-protection
Yes to friendship of good women who fear Allah, love Islam and respect high values
Yes to honouring one's parents, upholding the ties of kinship, honouring one's neighbours and caring for orphans
Yes to reading useful, interesting and beneficial books

[Taken from : You can be the happiest woman in the world by Dr Aid al-Qarni]

Sangat IDEAL. sebab Islam sangat cantik :)

Sangat susah. sebab nafsu kita akan mengheret kita jauh-jauh daripada benda-benda baik.

Sangat sukar. sebab iman kita naik dan turun. waktu iman turun dan hormonal imbalance berlaku, syaitan akan membisikkan bermacam-macam keburukan.

Sangat senang. if Allah wills it to be so :)

Little things do count :)

2010-04-16T19:22:00.011+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Baru-baru ni saya dan kawan saya naik taxi. Kitorang baru lepas masak-masak. Baju semua bau masakan habis ah. I didn't bother to change, sebab nak pergi hantar barang je kejap dekat rumah kawan. Pastu driver ni cakap ah, I smell something, like a cooking. A very nice smell. Kitorang pun gelak-gelak je ah. Cakap 'yeah, we've just finished cooking'.

Plan asalnya, lepas hantar barang tu ingat nak balik naik train. Pastu saya terfikir, 'bagus jugak kalau dapat bagi makanan tu sikit dekat driver ni'. Dakwah kan. Pastu kitorang pun cakaplah kat dia, kitorang nak balik dengan dia jugak. Suruh dia tunggu jap sementara kitorang hantar barang tu.

Pastu bila dah dekat-dekat nak sampai rumah. Saya tanya dia 'do you wanna try our cooking?'. Pastu dia cakap, nak. Pastu dia gurau-gurau ah, 'no poison right?'. Huu.

Pastu, masuk rumah, kitorang pun rushing-rushing lah pack kan makanan untuk dia. Nasik dengan ayam paprik. Saya memang reti masak paprik je =P asyik masak paprik je dekat mana-mana. Before dia beredar dia cakap 'you're the best customer ever.' Pastu saya cakap 'hmm, you're the best driver ever :D' hehe. Memang baik pun driver tu. Polite and friendly.

Pastu, malam tu dapat text message daripada dia saying 'thank you, I enjoyed the rice and the chicken very much'.

Alhamdulillah :) Masa saya buat tu saya teringat pasal, ada orang ikut ajaran sesat al-arqam, sebab terpegun bila dia nampak sheikh dia tu kutip nasik, tak membazir. Saya pun dah lupa saya dengar ni kat mana. Hehe. So, lil things do count.

Semoga through this little action of ours, Allah akan mengurniakan hidayah yang berterusan kepada kami dan memberi hidayah pada dia. Ameen.

search quickly.

2010-04-15T17:04:00.006+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful.

How do you write happy things, when you are not feeling so?

I wanna be able to write happy things even when I am sad, even when I am mad.

Ok. Jom kita practise ingat happy memories, just like what Harry Potter did in order to conjure a patronus.

Search quickly. Search.

1. I was really happy when I bought my cupcakes multidrawer :)

2. I was happy when I spent time with emil and dd in London recently.

3. I was happy when some people appreciated the cooking in spring camp recently.

4. I WAS REALLY HAPPY WHEN PAPA ALLOWED ME TO TAKE A KITTEN HOME ^.^

5. I was happy when papa and mama decided to construct a pink room for me :)

6. I was happy when kaksue gave me a book that I had been longing for - Emily of new moon.

7. I was happy through out my turkey trip with shakira-sharing food, sharing secrets, sharing plans, sharing anxieties.

8. I was happy when I got a high mark for my second year essay.

9. I was happy when a taxi driver actually texted me, expressing his gratitude - me and my friends gave some malaysian cooking to a taxi driver simply because he said 'I smell food. a very nice smell'.

10. I was happy whenever I bought pretty bags.

11. I was happy whenever I recovered from a very depressing state of coughing. Especially when I only took some 'kicap' and some 'jus limau nipis'.

12. I was happy that my supervisor and the PhD student who was in charge of me treated me nicely. Whenever they replied my email with a smiley :)

13. I was happy when I went shopping for loads and loads of baju in Jakarta.

14. I was happy whenever I received a personal friendly email/text from my friends.

15. I was happy when I looked at happy+cheerful pictures of me and my friends.

The points were not listed in any specific order. They are all my sweet memories. To be kept forever. To be refreshed whenever I feel unhappy.

Memanglah banyak benda keduniaan dan materialisitik dalam list tu. Partly because saya memang suka barang-barang cantik. Partly lagi pulak sebab benda keakhiratan tak berani kot nak list. Nak cakap happy dengan suatu amalan pun, tak tahu pun lagi Allah redha ke tak.

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Berkesankah teknik mengira-ngira kegembiraan ini?

Bolehla...seposen dua. Heh.

pretty pretty spring :)

2010-04-14T23:54:00.008+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Am I a bird lover? I should be. A true biologist would love birds.

I love to listen to them when they are singing :)

And spring is here. The pretty pretty spring ^.^

And I'm celebrating spring with my two lovely terengganu-mates :)

A well-deserved spring celebration, after a very tense easter break when I was all occupied with my final year project. Sekarang pun takdelah boleh berehat pun, exam is coming. I still have two presentations to be delivered, another one essay.

EXAMS PREPARATION in LESS THAN A MONTH.

BUT just for these two days, I want to free my mind for a lil while.

Tata!

ingatlah kita.

2010-04-10T12:24:00.007+01:00

Wahai umat manusia,

sekiranya kamu menaruh syak (ragu-ragu) tentang kebangkitan makhluk (hidup semula pada hari kiamat), maka (perhatilah kepada tingkatan kejadian manusia) kerana sebenarnya Kami telah menciptakan kamu dari tanah, kemudian dari setitik air benih, kemudian dari sebuku darah beku, kemudian dari seketul daging yang disempurnakan kejadiannya dan yang tidak disempurnakan; (Kami jadikan secara yang demikian) kerana Kami hendak menerangkan kepada kamu (kekuasaan Kami); dan Kami pula menetapkan dalam kandungan rahim (ibu yang mengandung itu) apa yang Kami rancangkan hingga ke suatu masa yang ditentukan lahirnya; kemudian Kami mengeluarkan kamu berupa kanak-kanak; kemudian (kamu dipelihara) hingga sampai ke peringkat umur dewasa; dan (dalam pada itu) ada di antara kamu yang dimatikan (semasa kecil atau semasa dewasa) dan ada pula yang dilanjutkan umurnya ke peringkat tua nyanyuk sehingga ia tidak mengetahui lagi akan sesuatu yang telah diketahuinya dahulu. Dan (ingatlah satu bukti lagi); Engkau melihat bumi itu kering, kemudian apabila Kami menurunkan hujan menimpanya, bergeraklah tanahnya (dengan tumbuh-tumbuhan yang merecup tumbuh), dan gembur membusutlah ia, serta ia pula menumbuhkan berjenis-jenis tanaman yang indah permai.

(Kedua-dua kenyataan) yang tersebut membuktikan bahawa sesungguhnya Allah jualah Tuhan Yang Sebenar-benarnya (yang berhak disembah), dan sesungguhnya Dia lah yang menghidupkan makhluk-makhluk yang mati, dan Dia lah jua Yang Maha Kuasa atas tiap-tiap sesuatu.

Dan bahawa sesungguhnya hari kiamat itu tetap akan datang, tidak ada sebarang syak padanya, dan bahawa sesungguhnya Allah akan membangkitkan (menghidupkan semula) orang-orang yang di dalam kubur.

[Surah al-Hajj:5-7]

2010-04-09T11:47:00.003+01:00

Heh. Masalah saya bila saya deactivate facebook adalah saya memerlukan ruang lain untuk express myself. Maka saya akan tend to write more, here.

Another 3 days left before I have to submit my Final year project (dissertation + presentation slides) and my essay on night singing birds. Kadang-kadang stress memuncak sampai takle nak buat apa. Kaku. Nak buat kerja tak boleh buat, nak tidur pun tak boleh. Last-last kaku. Haha. Janganlah imagine kaku tu camne =P

Allah, Allah, Allah.

Takpelah, banyakkan berserah. Serah seluruh jiwa raga pada Allah. InsyaAllah Dia akan atur yang terbaik untuk kita. Bila Dia aturkan, semua benda akan jadi mudah. Kita nak berusaha pun jadi mudah. Kita nak berfikir pun jadi mudah. Sebab kalau kita stress-stress, seolah-olah kita tak serah lah. 'Serah' tu bukan bermaksud kita menyerah kalah pada kerja tu, tapi kita menyerahkan diri kepada Allah supaya Dia atur yang terbaik. Mind you, there's a big distinction between serah kalah pada kerja dan serah diri pada Allah. Don't get mixed up with the term :)

kemas

2010-04-08T15:35:00.004+01:00

Being a lil bit organised promotes happiness!

-kak chik-

mari organisekan diri

mari

kemas bilik.

kemas meja.

despite sibuk ke apeke.

kalau bilik kemas, meja kemas,

perasaan pun kemas,

minda pun kemas, hati pun kemas.

baru penulisan menjadi kemas =)

Exam timetable dah keluar.

I will have exams on :

the 10th, 11th, 14th, 17th and 25th of May.

^_^

2010-04-07T16:34:00.003+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Ijun tolong saya lukis diagram for final year project saya. Baik kan ijun?

Mia pulak lukis ikan comel untuk saya ^_^

nak tengok?

Ni ikan yang mia lukis :D

Ni pulak diagram yang ijun tolong buat ^_^

Jazakumullahu khair =)

Doakan anis!

=)

2010-04-01T22:06:00.004+01:00

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful :)

Haha, setelah dua entry yang berfont super besar, saya rasa saya dah kembali normal :)

Tapi silalah percaya bahawasanya saya wajar stress, sebab saya ada banyak lagi kerja tak siap.

Dan manusia, being manusia, dia mesti nak cuba buat yang terbaik. But due to limited time etc, we can only do something that is within our capacity. Suka hatilah orang nak agree ke tak. Sebab I have this tendency to try and make my essays/write ups as perfect as possible. Tapi kadang-kadang sebab terlampau nak elok, last-last yang hujung-hujung dah jadik buruk gila sebab kesuntukan masa,sibuk sangat duk amend yang awal-awal. Yang penting kita nak the whole thing elok :) Takpelah kalau tak perfect mana pun, asal seragam dan semuanya in flow.

Suka saya nak mengingatkan diri sendiri, tentang nasihat berikut:

"manusia akan start jadi susah bila dia rasa dia in control of things. sebab memang hakikatnya dia takde control. sebab tu nak kena banyak banyak banyak bergantung dan berserah pada Allah. Allah suka sangat kita mengadu pada Dia. In fact segala kesusahan dan ujian yang menimpa adalah sebab Allah nak tengok kita kembali pada Dia tak. As simple as that"

Wallahua'lam.

2010-04-01T13:16:00.004+01:00

mama kata,

jangan sebut susah atau malas.

tapi sebut:

SENANG, SUKA, SABAR!

SENANG, SENANG, SENANG,

SUKA, SUKA, SUKA,

SABAR, SABAR, SABAR

^.^

I LOVE YOU ALLAH

I LOVE YOU MAMA

I LOVE YOU NURUL IMAN JAMALULLAIL!

'for all the help!:)'

2010-03-31T20:44:00.002+01:00

A BIG FAT 'STRESS'

kalau final year project tak best

ada harapan lagi tak nak grad????????

I don't know if I'm over reacting (as usual anis liyana mmg suka over react dengan study dia), OR memang final year project ni teruk.

tak reti nak analyse parasite results!

T_T

and that's the most crucial part!

Allah, Allah, Allah.

Allahummayasseer wala tu'asseer.